Coworker #1, on the other hand... I sort of fantasize about doing her physical harm. Looking back, I realize now that this was not just text conversations that crossed a line, this was really a blossoming EA. (That assumes that WH is telling the truth that there was never any PA.) She knew he was married with a family. She still flirted with him all day at work, and tried to arrange dates with him, and sent him nude photos of herself in sexual poses. Even AFTER Dday, when he sent her a message telling her that I knew and that he didn't want to lose his marriage over her, she continued to try to test the waters, bring him gifts of baked goods at work, and let him know he was welcome to come visit her at her place if he wanted.
I was not facebook friends with her and have never met or spoken to her, but I look at her facebook page sometimes. I hate the stupid profile photos she puts up, always leering into the camera. I also hate the stupid cover photos that she changes frequently. I noticed that before Dday, the cover photos were often quotes revolving around new relationships. After Dday, the tone shifted - there was one that said something like, "please just be honest with me, don't lead me on".
What is wrong with these skanks?!?!?!? I know that there has been inappropriate flirting with other coworkers in the past as well. Is there something in the air when people walk into that building?? I just want to line them all up and tell them to stop being such disgusting whores and focus on doing the jobs they are being paid to do while they are at work!!
It is hard for me to not send a message to Coworker #1 cussing her out. But I know that it wouldn't help anything, and it would probably just piss me off more because this tramp would not be contrite, I'm sure.
ETA: I also get really pissed at WH as I realize how his coworkers must all look at me. How pathetic I must seem to them. He seems to think that he was very discreet about all of his activities, but I think that is a bunch of crap.
[This message edited by MylarPineapples at 12:24 PM, June 23rd (Sunday)]
I'm so sorry for what he is putting you through.. Hugs..
[This message edited by ButterflyGirl at 12:39 PM, June 23rd (Sunday)]
I actually spoke to her yesterday and told her I have nothing to say to her. It felt good to take the high road when she clearly wanted to say something and I almost felt sorry for her hearing the desperation in her voice (almost). Everything I thought I would want to tell her (she's trash, scum, a homewrecker/whore)!sort of melted away and for whatever reason I don't feel as angry today. She did apologize for whatever that's worth.
I have also had trouble with viewing every woman I see as a threat. It's a trust issue on my part with H and our MC said it will get easier as I learn to trust but its up to H to do that! Only then will I be able to relax some.
Finally this is R 8/14/13
"Forgiving is a journey; the deeper the wound, the longer the journey".
If she is remorseful she gets it. If she is not, then getting a scathing letter from you will only reinforce that she matters. You have 2 recent ddays. I understand what you are feeiling and it's easier said than done to put the focus on your serial cheater WH. What do you want from your M?
I can only control myself, no one else. I do not have that kind of power.
PrincessPeach, I understand what you mean about seeing every other woman as a threat. WH was telling me about a mother who struck up a conversation with him at DD's softball game, and all I could do was glare at him and wonder.
WH is starting IC today. He took the initiative to start IC and made the appointment himself - I didn't demand it. He continues to be very remorseful and insists he is going to do whatever it takes to repair the damage he's done to our marriage. I just want to be able to trust him again, and also to feel like I can trust myself - that is the hardest part for me, the realization that I cannot trust my own perceptions.
But in doing that it would only bring me to her level and that I simply will not do.
I understand your pain, I feel it too, but I think contacting OW may just add fuel to the fire. I know in Perv's case (I don't want to generalize so will use this one as an example) doesn't think like me or relate to anything I have to say in any way, so it helps to avoid contacting her-also, it would make her a real person and that I cannot fathom, though have seen her mug on the internet. (WTF is the attraction?!)
Sorry for my long note and for what you are experiencing. It's terrible and simply should not be a part of life.
Yes, I think Butterfly Girl has a good point and I've been reminded before, though it hurt to hear, that OW doesn't owe me anything-it's Perv that did. It's Perv that made the choice to bring OW to being and OW took the bait.
Now they have a big mess, but don't think so, as your WH does.
I hope it will work out the way you wish and think writing things down but not sending them is a good idea-it beats being passive.
The only thing that stays the same, is change. -M. Etheridge
What is wrong with these skanks?!?!?!?
It's not just them.
ETA--that doesn't change the fact she is a crappy person who makes really bad decisions. I hope that one day I can pity her.
[This message edited by WeepingBuddhist at 2:06 PM, June 24th (Monday)]
So yes, I will chirp and chime in to say that OW didn't do it all herself. I think it's easier to blame and sometimes focus on them for us, because we try to believe it wasn't our spouse.
I think sometimes there is a fog that descends on us BS in the early days of DDay, especially when it's TT.
I wanted to let you know you arent the only one feeling this.
I also understand that it is hard to grasp that some women are "ok" with being the OW. This is something that i would never tolerate in my own life and it is hard for me to respect anyone who does this knowingly. I try to realize that often times the OW are lied to as well so aren't really making an informed decision-but that is little consolation to feeling anything but hate for them.