end of story he will leave..... well thanks guy!
i know that a RA is not the answer and it will be adding to problems and its vindictive and so on but idk i guess im just at a point where im like well your the do as i say not as i do type person and idk where im going with this i guess since he is fighting for our marriage so to say why wouldnt he if things were the other way around ?
i guess i feel he has no place to talk im just so angry because of all the comments through out our marriage
the who has time for an affair
there too much to risk
i dont want anyone else but you
and so on.....and i hate that he is "hot"
i know he says its the biggest mistake of his life and blah blah but F^%* he wanted to make that mistake everyone knows when they get into this its wrong and its cheating but still doesnt stop them .
he says he didnt think of me in that moment they way he should have. that when she was asked if he was married he just simply answered yes , and that no image of me came to him that he didnt think too much into her question since there was a group of ppl playing beer pong that she later followed hims and she was bold and out there to come up to him and suggest to leave together that he was beyond flattered and made a horrible mistake now hes worried i will seek validation else where!!!!
i admitted to entertaining the thought briefly but i knew it wasnt the way for me. but i hate this will forever be a tainted moment in our marriage i will never be able to say that our marriage is pure and i will never be able to say that he always wanted me . he says things no during sex" its only you and me babe" "nobody will ever come between us again" "i only want and need you" " your the only one ill ever be inside of"( that one ) but i get what hes is doing still doesnt change the fact that its not til now he realizes that all of a sudden im what he wants
he said he knew it all along and never thought of leaving or cheating that it really happened out the blue but knew i was it for him
sorry i just hate my reality because i love him so damn much and he fucked me over and now because he is changing and sorry and all that good shit im suppose to be ok ....not never will i be ok