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Default  Posted: 9:45 AM, June 29th (Saturday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I didn't check up on my SAfWH either. It just seemed wrong. Until. Until the facts just slapped me across the face. By then he had had two PA and countless encounters with strippers, who knows to what level, and his SA had escalated.

We WANT to trust. We don't want to expose ourselves to the truth because it HURTS. But, like the kid who eventually has to find out about Santa Claus, we cannot heal from the things we don't know about.

Find out. Poly. Var. Whatever it takes. There is very little chance you got infected long ago. This is on him.

Damn autocorrect is responsible for the silly errors, sorry!

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Default  Posted: 10:23 AM, June 29th (Saturday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

hpv50 sorry you are here but glad you trusted your gut enough to seek help. I wish I had done that years ago.
No doubt that the not knowing is making you feel crazy. It's like you're a prosecutor going to trial for a murder case but you are also the judge AND you believe the guy is innocent! You, the judge, can't find him guilty based on circumstantial evidence and have to dismiss the case.
Now, you become the investigator. Get your hard evidence, as much as you can gather, before presenting your case. The trick is, (and its not easy) once you get SOME evidence, not to blow your cover cause he will minimize what you have found (as he has already done) and destroy all other evidence and this "crazy" state you're in will last MUCH longer. He will lie until you can prove, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that he is guilty...and even then, he'll lie some more.
I agree with confused615 about the poly. He offered cause he knows you won't follow through. My WH said the same thing. Wish I would have done it a long time ago. Just last week (1 1/2 years after D-Day (discovery day) I said I want him to take a poly cause I just feel (my gut) like there's more. Right then and there he said he made out with one more person than I knew about and a few other things. That's why we're not in R (reconciliation) because of TT (trickle truth!) All these great acronyms you wish you never had a reason to know.
We all know the pain and uncertainty you are in and just know that if/when you do get your hard evidence and hopefully a confession, we will be here for you as you experience a whole different kind of pain and uncertainty.
Stay healthy, continue to work out and get yourself tested for all STD's (in case you didn't know: there are 2 types of herpes; type 1 (i think that's the one that gives you cold sores and about 80% of the population has it) and type 2- the one you hope you don't have. My WH had type 1 but I couldn't even try to link that to his affairs and my gyn didn't test me for it cause I didn't have any active symptoms (cold sores.) That was a fun doctors visit

BS- 40, WH 38
Married 13yrs, 2 Sweet Boys-5 & 9
DD#1: 1/10/12- 6mo EA
DD#2: 8/23/12-revealed 1PA, 2ONS in 2010 and 1EA/PA in 2004
DD#3: 9/10/12- ONS w/friend in 2010
Lots of other crap and TT - basically I was married to a guy that forgot he was

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Default  Posted: 10:35 AM, June 29th (Saturday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Mine agreed to the poly, told me about one incident and then tt. So go for polygraph use a var in office.

sorry post on my tablet

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Default  Posted: 10:37 AM, June 29th (Saturday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Many WS's will offer to take a poly to prove they are being faithful.... then when the poly date approaches, they find some reason to be offended that you even have the nerve to ask them to take one so they refuse based on some moral grounds, usually "if you don't trust me, then we shouldn't be married anyway" type of garbage. They also often pull out a "parking lot confession" where they tell you something you could never know, often something really bad, and then say "that's it, there's nothing more" in hopes that you won't go through with the poly and get ALL the truth out of them. It's classis WS behavior, right out of the cheaters manual.

There are so many red flags in your story, in my opinion, the chances that he's NOT cheating are incredibly low. Especially how he reacted when you walked into his office, and the fact that the tart he was with knew SOOO much about your family. Her talking about her own H is pretty classic also... "throw the BS off by telling her I'm married too so she thinks I'm a safe friend for WS".

DDay - Dec '07
Me - BS
Him - FWS
Us - Committed
May 18, 2010 - I forgave him fully!
"Behold, I have refined thee, but not with silver; I have chosen thee in the furnace of affliction." Isaiah 48:10

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Default  Posted: 11:05 AM, June 29th (Saturday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

There is really good advice here.

As I am longer on "the other side", it is coming to light that no matter what -on earth or in hell-I did to "be a better wife", THERE WAS NOTHING. If cheating is going to happen, it's inevitable and nothing you could do will prevent it. I'm sorry if that's harsh, but I learned that from life and having mine and my children's life ruined at the hands of a cheating man.

I made myself physically and emotionally ill and a pawn in his hands, until I had the full knowledge of what he was really doing.

And I will tell you that he acted much as yours does-he was also very angry and shocked when I brought up the STD part of it all. He worked very hard to get out of being tested, when he could have been all done. And what I think now, is that it was forcing him to admit what he had been doing-to me and to others. He would have to look it in the eye. Many song and dance routines were to follow and that was a huge red flag.

Yes, the attitude of your WH bothers me. I saw that and even was yelled at by Happy Pants (formerly called Perv) and he defended OW and at times called me a liar.

It only took one or two "conversations" to realize that I was not going to get anywhere and his attempt at reconcilating were not real.

My STD results they tested while I go for pregnancy appointments and luckily have been all negative, but I do not mention this to Happy Pants. He didn't take things seriously before, so why would he now?

I also agree with the other posts that talked about the person your WH was with at work doesn't sit well with me and that he was doing it in a room full of coworkers-just associating even at close range-it's so disrespectful to you.

Sorry for the long post, but the red flags are adding up.

There's a lot for you to think about now as you no doubt are and the quieter you can do so, the more beneficial it will be in the long run. Yes, the more you speak of it to him, the more clues it gives him.

The hardest part for me has been the shock of learning that the man I loved for 20 years is no longer even my friend or on my side. He is very willing to take from me and hurt me without second thought and at times I don't even know it.

It's terrible.

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Perserverance and spirit have done wonders in all ages.

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Default  Posted: 11:07 AM, June 29th (Saturday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

How would she know how much your daughter has grown? She can't have grown THAT much since December, right? And, where did she first see your daughter?

There's just too much there for it not to be something, I'm sorry to say.

I still think you should stop talking to him and go deep into detective mode. If you keep talking to him- and listening to him- he will twist your mind up like you wouldn't believe. Take it from all of us who've been there.

I'm sorry you are dealing with this, but you aren't alone. We're all here for you.

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Default  Posted: 3:21 PM, June 29th (Saturday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Hi hpv50. All I can say is I can totally relate to how you are feeling! I was diagnosed with high risk HPV as well and my H acted like he had nothing to do with it! After 15 years of only being with him and never having any issues with my Pap Smear results, I knew he was lying! At first not long after Dday he said that he really didn't think that he had passed something like that onto me b/c he and OW were "safe" and used condoms. This was one of his reasons for never telling me about the A. HE thought it was long in the past (6 years!) and he knew I would leave him if he ever admitted to me now. I got irate at that comment and let him know quite loudly that you can get HPV and Herpes even WITH protection. It also made me SICK that he knew damn well that he needed to use protection b/c he knew what he was doing was wrong b/c she was not his wife. ugh!

I dealt with a lot of "I thought you just got it from some other way" kind of BS stories from him before he finally admitted to the affair. Everything was all jumbled up for me...but finding out I had HPV was the last straw in which I finally got my H to admit to the affair that I had already knew took place deep in my heart.

Please, please, please go with your GUT! I went against my gut feelings for SO long that my H had manipulated the truth so much that now I am still confused b/c he had made up so many stories! It is sad b/c you WANT to trust your spouse! you WANT what they are telling you to be true....unfortunately they often use this blind trust against us BS's.

Take care of yourself and get a full panel of STD testing...also ask for the test for Herpes as well!

Welcome to the best group you never wanted to be a part of.

Me: 32
FWH: 32
Together 16 years, met in HS.
"Sort of" Dday 2/28/06

True Dday 5/2/ all came out
R going very well

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Default  Posted: 4:45 PM, June 29th (Saturday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

When you said the doctor told you that there is a 3% chance that the virus was dormant all these years, I immediately assumed you meant YOU had it dormant for all these years.

Based on your comments about your WH's response, it appears he immediately tried to claim HE must have had it dormant for all these years.

Sorry, that is incriminating right there. He knows he now has HPV. He probably had a flare up of it while you were out of the country. His response was an attempt to explain away how he contracted it.

Your daughter commenting on the maybe OW is another huge red flag. Like another poster said, how the heck would she know how much your daughter has grown?

PLUS, this woman knows WAY TOO MUCH about your marriage. Your WH is sharing way too much personal information.

Lastly, my WH blew off Mother's day and my birthday during his A. He got absolutely vicious with the kids when they begged him to take them out to get me a present. In fact, all I got for my bday was an infection that looked an awful lot like trich, which my WH gave me the prescription for trich for, but which my WH insisted was a yeast infection. Giving me an antibiotic for a yeast infection makes no sense. I suspected something then, but told myself "No, can't be".

Listen to your gut HPV50. Your WH gave you an STD. If the OW has one, she very well could have others. She could also very well be sleeping with other people.

Take the 3% with a grain of salt HPV50. In reality, there is no way for researchers to absolutely determine when and where an individual has been infected, Period.

The researchers would have to obtain annual medical records for a HUGE number of people who went to the doctor every year for 20+ years and were tested. The researchers just aren't going to be able to do find those people and get those records.

That 3% are those people who the researchers really can not determine when they contracted the virus. Dormancy is only one possible explanation.

That 3% of "possibly dormant" people probably include women who have had normal pap smears for years and then their WH cheats and BOOM they test positive.

Me - BS 40s
WH - 50s
4 Kids
Dday May 2012

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Default  Posted: 5:08 PM, June 29th (Saturday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

If he says he will take a poly - get him too.

He probably doesn't think you will take him up on it - I mean he has offered so he must be telling the truth right????

You need to follow through - he may think he can beat it, you won't go through with it or you may end up with a car-park confession. What ever - it can give you piece of mind.

Get a VAR and put it in his car!

BS: 47 (me)
WH: 51
Married 26 yrs, 3 kids (16-24)
D-Days 2012: 23 - 24 May + TT
D-Day 2013: 12 Apr OW#3
mOW #1 EA yrs PA Feb 2009-end 2011
mOW #2 EA months PA 4 months 2010
OW #3 PA single time 2010
Status: Maybe 'R'

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Default  Posted: 5:31 PM, June 29th (Saturday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

How do men get tested for HPV? I'm curious...because my spouse is SAWH and he got a clean bill of health for all of the other usual suspects but I did not see HPV as one of the ones that was tested.

BS - mid-40's
SAWH - mid 40's
Kids - 2 elementary school aged
Getting tons of therapy and trying to "work it out"

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Default  Posted: 5:35 PM, June 29th (Saturday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Since you are an auditor I would suggest that you begin auditing everything that you can.
Check his old credit card bills for the months that you were away-look for restaurant bills that would equal two dinners, hotels,clothing stores etc.

do you know his passwords to the computer?

try to get all of his phone records , and like the others have said try either a VAR (voice activated recorder) and/or a key logger on his computer to monitor who he emails.

Do not feel guilty.

This is war.

You are fighting to save your marriage.

The bottom line is that you will not feel secure again until you know the truth.
And you cannot begin to reconcile until he faces what he did and is honest and transparent about everything.

And like others have said...they lie.

When I first confronted my FWH about the suspicious overly friendly emails that I found (and I confronted him in a psychologist's office to have a third party there)my FWH's first instinct was to lie and say that he and the married co-worker were just friends and the emails were just friendly.

It took me three hours at home that night to finally get to the bottom of it all.

It was quite a scene....and it escalated as my gut kept telling me to continue to dig...I made him call the OW in front of me to tell her no more inappropriate emails.

During this call he slipped up and due to this I realized that it was much more.

that was when he finally fessed up to the truth.

It was much more than an innocent office friendship.

It was a 5 year LTA!

They lie until you have concrete proof to confront them with.

Me- BS
Him- WH
Long term marriage
D-day- Jan. 2007
5 yr. LTA

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Default  Posted: 5:44 PM, June 29th (Saturday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I'm so sorry you had to celebrate your 50 and fabulous this way. You deserve a true celebration so f him for that.

You sound level headed and wise as does your daughter. Get to the bottom of this and put the var in the car. I really think this will give you answers. It is the
time in yourshould be happy and independent. Kids are older and you can spend time on you. Think long and hard about what you want from this next phaof life. I know it is hard when the person you thought had your back put the knife in it.
180 and investigate. Hugs my friend.

[This message edited by LisaReg at 5:46 PM, June 29th (Saturday)]

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And we never even know we have the key." The Eagles

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Default  Posted: 5:59 PM, June 29th (Saturday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I agree with the poster above...SAWH did not confess until I had jewelry receipts from his car glove compartment a couple weeks after I confronted him with my suspicions (where I also had pretty good evidence - a letter came home from his health club notifying him that Female Friend had exceeded the number of allowable guest passes and there was some event he attended that he left the email for printed out on the sofa - it had fallen out of his pants and it was for an organization Female Friend supports - all of this was learned through a google search). Anyway, once I found jewelry receipts, I confronted him in the middle of the night and he confessed. I still think there is more - mostly porn and strippers - but this one lasted 2 years and she worked at a company he's involved with...he tried to keep going to the weekly update meetings (that was their date night). I told him NO F*ING way ---unless he wanted me to file for divorce right here, right now and then everyone at that company would know what tricks they had up their sleeve the whole time.

My situation, I sensed something wasn't right about 2 years earlier but I did not have any evidence. I did ask him "Do you have a girlfriend? Are you seeing someone?" but he dismissed it/gaslighted me.

I read the responses and I think people are giving you good advice. I do think you might want to consider if your H is addicted to porn. People with ADHD have a tendency towards porn and affairs and secret lives.

I'm not sure what benefit there is to further sleuthing. I think you know enough already - he is cheating. TRUST YOUR INSTINCT. Do not ignore it. Cheating is usually about opportunity...and he certainly had it.

BS - mid-40's
SAWH - mid 40's
Kids - 2 elementary school aged
Getting tons of therapy and trying to "work it out"

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Thanks a million, guys. I am beginning to realize I'm way too trusting,

He did slip up, a little, today in MC. We were discussing boundaries, and I said that in light of our circumstances, thought i was perfectly appropriate to limit his conersations with his coworker to professional ones (eg not discussing me or the kids). He immediately said that he didnt want me leasing him too much, that he didn't have any friends and thought it was perfectly fine to discuss my job and work situation with his coworker because she also has a spouse in the same business (academics). He had told me that they weren't even remotely "friends" previously. Any way, within five minutes he made the statement that she was "one of many women I work with and no different." we' she an important friend with which to commiserate, or isn't she? I immediately called him on the contradiction, and he had no response. The MC let it go, but granted, it was our first session, and she asked that the next one be solo with me. Oh, he also said that while she was in her current position for 6 months, she's worked at the church for several years, which is supposedly why she knew my daughter had grown. It still seems weird, though.

Thanks for helping me make a decision: I'm going to audit the hell out of him. I used to be a pretty decent auditor, so why NOT put those skills to use? So he probably didn't use his personal cell phone or our VISA; what else can I think of? They used to train us to think like a thief, so here goes...

List of stuff to investigate:

--work credit card
--work land line
--cash from an old bank account in his name
--personal cell phone deleted texts (he may not realize these can be restored)
--personal email deleted records
--His office desk
--His office computer

the first two I'll need his help with, but he's the CFO, so I know he has access, and those records can't be destroyed. Ill ask for these last so he wont know im auditing him. The last two I can access by showing up "too early" for a meeting with him. Lately I've been dropping by his office a lot more to establish territory so to speak (how desperate does that sound), and noticed the secretary is happy to let me into his office before he arrives. He's a memento saver of sorts, so my guess is that if they exist, they'll be in his desk. Ditto with his calendar, which is only on his work pc. I'll also have to ask him for personal email codes, but again, doubt he realizes some deleted emails can be restored. The good part in all this is that it gives me something to do that I actually can control, yay. so much is out of control lately...

The shocking part of all this is that ive been assuming he cheated while I was overseas only, but now I'm beginning to wonder if you guys are right, and he may still be seeing someone. My IC says its also possible this is an earlier stage EA, but regardless, it sucks.

p.s. I'll try a VAR in his car and maybe office.

Me: BS - 50; Him: WH - 51, vulnerable NPD
married 19 years, 3 kids
DD1 4/22/13 (hpv diagnosis)
DD2 5/9/13 (gaslighting begins)
DD3 6/30/13 (admits EA)
DD4 7/7/13 admits "trying to date other women" for 3 years

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Default  Posted: 7:32 PM, June 29th (Saturday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Places to look:

* gym bag
* backpack
* car - center console, glovebox, trunk, wheel well, under floor mats
* all pockets of all pants, work jackets, work shirts
* bathroom drawer
* tool bench & tool box
* wallet!
* briefcase!
* file cabinet

I found a treasure trove of disgusting stuff in a box that contained STBX's old resumes. I also found hair-raising pictures in a box right next to our church registration.

Me = BS (Stay-at-home-mom)
Him = EX-d out (abusive troglodyte NPD SA)
3 tween-aged kids
Together 20 years
D-Day: Memorial Weekend 2011

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Default  Posted: 8:26 PM, June 29th (Saturday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Your list is good & NG added some good ones too. If you an access his comp try his FB page too (the PMs)
we're all here for you!

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Default  Posted: 8:59 PM, June 29th (Saturday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Ok, he uses Facebook, but I never have, so I'll have to figure that one out. I'll also have to ask for his passwords. My impression is that he's not on it very much, but who knows.

Me: BS - 50; Him: WH - 51, vulnerable NPD
married 19 years, 3 kids
DD1 4/22/13 (hpv diagnosis)
DD2 5/9/13 (gaslighting begins)
DD3 6/30/13 (admits EA)
DD4 7/7/13 admits "trying to date other women" for 3 years

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Default  Posted: 9:43 PM, June 29th (Saturday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Hold off on asking him outright for his passwords. Maybe try to figure them out first . They are usually the same as the one he uses for banking etc. That may be less suspicious for him-that's what I did.
Others on SI asked for the password and checked the computer right there in front of him. They didn't want to give him a chance to delete anything.

Me- BS
Him- WH
Long term marriage
D-day- Jan. 2007
5 yr. LTA

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Default  Posted: 9:58 PM, June 29th (Saturday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Good ideas, but I don't even know what his user name is (Im totally not into FB). I think I'll wait until I've quietly gone through his other records first, then ask for the passwords and go through FB in front of him so he can't delete it.

Me: BS - 50; Him: WH - 51, vulnerable NPD
married 19 years, 3 kids
DD1 4/22/13 (hpv diagnosis)
DD2 5/9/13 (gaslighting begins)
DD3 6/30/13 (admits EA)
DD4 7/7/13 admits "trying to date other women" for 3 years

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Default  Posted: 10:25 PM, June 29th (Saturday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Also forgot to mention that he offered to take a poly. He wouldn't do that if he was lying, would he?

Yeah, he would; as confused615 said, it's when push comes to shove that it matters...and oftentimes they (WSs) think that the offer's going to assuage your concern. Mine offered, too.

Listen to your gut is the best possible advice. Not a one of us here thought we would be in the position we found ourselves, I think; none of this was supposed to happen. No one wants you to be joining this not-so-merry throng, but it sure sounds like something hinky may be going on. The fact that you *feel* something is wrong is paramount.

Going into information-gathering mode may be key right now. Best of luck to you; sucks to be in this position, but I'm glad you found SI...people here will help you figure out what's really going on.

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