Topic: Feeling alone tonight.
Member # 37225
| Posted: 9:48 PM, June 29th (Saturday), 2013|
I am feeling very alone tonight. Its my fifth night separated. I want to call him or text him or something but I won't.
I have only had two communications with him. The last one ended with "Take Care Stung".
Posts: 263 | Registered: Oct 2012
Member # 33698
| Posted: 9:52 PM, June 29th (Saturday), 2013|
You're not alone.
Keep up with the NC. It gets easier every day. I know that probably rings hollow to you right now, but it's true.
BS (Me) 39
Two DS and One DD
It matters not how strait the gate,/How charged with punishments the scroll./I am the master of my fate:/I am the captain of my soul.--"Invictus," William Ernest Henley
Posts: 3606 | Registered: Oct 2011
Member # 23890
| Posted: 9:55 PM, June 29th (Saturday), 2013|
Stung - keep yourself busy - and no alcohol! When is the last time you updated your strong chick music list? I recommend Youtube - right now!
"We must be willing to get rid of the life we've planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us." Joseph Campbell...So, If fear was not a factor - what would you do?
Posts: 4113 | Registered: May 2009 | From: New England
Member # 38735
| Posted: 10:06 PM, June 29th (Saturday), 2013|
It will get easier. I promise. I initially missed STBX a lot, but I grew to enjoy having the house to myself quickly. It got to the point that when he would briefly come over to pick up the kids or to fix something at the house, I couldn't wait for him to leave.
BW - Me (37)
XWH - (37) The Gnat
OW - Some dumb whore he picked up in another state and moved here here. Known as Hello Kitty.
M for 8 years, together for 10
1 DD (5), 1 DS (1 year)
Posts: 902 | Registered: Mar 2013
Member # 35229
| Posted: 1:21 AM, June 30th (Sunday), 2013|
Like any bad habit it is hard to break and takes time and effort.
Try not to read into anything he says - watch.his.actions. They are speaking to you loud and clear here.
((stungbytravel)) I cringe when I remember those early days. I felt like I had lost a limb. Truth is I had lost a tumour. It takes a whole for those ghost pains to ease. Be gentle with yourself.
I may have reached a point where I'd piss on him if he was on fire.... eventually!!
Posts: 5576 | Registered: Apr 2012 | From: Australia
Member # 38866
| Posted: 3:25 AM, June 30th (Sunday), 2013|
I am with you honey. This is night number 4 for me. I told him to leave after 18 months if total bullshit.
I feel weird. Sleeping feels weird after having soneone next to me for 24 years BUT i feel relieved.
That dark pathetic energy has gone. My son is relaxed now, we are chilling and i know each day will get better.
Has to.........cant get any worse now there is no lying, cheated sack of shit around.
You keep busy and do what i am doing.....dont focus on what he did to you...thats past......focus only on all the great things that will now come into your life.....and trust me they will.
You deserve to be treated with love and respect and now you are available for that.......
Love yourself......watch your life bloom now.
BS me 48
Him 45 NPD/SA fucktard
1 beautiful DS
M 20 yr T 24
DD#1 Jan 12
DD#2 Aug 12 LTA/PA with pond scum
Shoot me down but I wont fall.
I am Titanium
Posts: 93 | Registered: Apr 2013 | From: Australia
Member # 31229
| Posted: 5:32 AM, June 30th (Sunday), 2013|
but I grew to enjoy having the house to myself quickly. It got to the point that when he would briefly come over to pick up the kids or to fix something at the house, I couldn't wait for him to leave.
Yes, this! It does take time, but once you start detaching a bit more and get used to the new reality, it will probably feel nice. Like I've told you, I still have my moments where I feel sad, but for the most part I just feel so much more peace.
Typing on an iPhone - please excuse the typos!
Posts: 1244 | Registered: Feb 2011
Member # 38458
| Posted: 2:52 PM, June 30th (Sunday), 2013|
" I felt like I had lost a limb. Truth is I had lost a tumour. "
(((stung))) it will get easier. I know those words rarely feel helpful but they are true.
Me-29 Starting over
ExWH-29 Probable NPD, PA, manchild
3 beautiful young children
DDay 1/20/13 Admits PA
No remorse so NO R. DIVORCED! 9/2013
Posts: 541 | Registered: Feb 2013 | From: USA
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