woke to complete anxiety this morning. he cannot get served because I have no clue where he is or what state. he has a navy bank acct so there is no address he needs to go to to get money. he has no one he needs to report to. hes just off the grid.
the suv is paid in full.
he took my gps which probably had a tracker but i dont have a serial number for it.
im just a mess today. realizing if I had that money i would be ok right now. I would be able to not have to look for him and just pay the bills and not worry. yet again, a crying mess today. all the flashbacks flooding in of good and bad.
im on that rollercoaster they say happens. i want off. i hate being weak and vulnerable. I feel like im going to have a heart attack or break down.
I did facebook his friends, family and him last night. he had me blocked on fb so I just remade a new one. told him what needed to be said. it goes to their "other" folder so they may not see it right away. but I also said i will be filing a missing persons report today if I dont hear from him