Wrote this yesterday. Sick of living in this new world of weirdness and pain, I turn to writing quite a bit. The following has a few "choice" words, in case those offend anyone xx
Back me into a corner?
Push the envelope?
Threaten the boundaries just that LITTLE bit more?
Watch what happens.
Watch what happens when you push back
Yes, push back
I will lash out at whoever comes near me
I just realized that my cage isn't so gilded
that the kills have all been staged
that my shiny/pretty enclosure is a prison
that the animals I love who share my prison would clamp their jaws on my neck if given half a chance
that the spectators I thought were admiring me are just more dead eyes looking for action
that I'm not who I thought I was
Poke the tiger
Make her move
It's not interesting unless she growls
Well, fuck you
I'll growl when I fucking feel like it
and when you offer me that tantalizing piece of steak to gain my "trust"…
maybe I will purr and let you touch me
maybe I will bite your fucking arm off
maybe I walk away because that meat smells dead like you
You wounded me
You gave me these scars
You took away all that was clean
I like fresh things
I've been fed shit
unknowingly, by you…and I know how it tastes
how it weakened my physical body in certain ways that even my resolve can't regain
I'll kill my own meat now
it's cleaner that way
I like my own space
watch how the enclosure is mine now that I have been left alone
watch how the others scurry
The spectators want a show
My cubs are all to me
Anyone touch my cubs and they will find out how long a painful death can take
I won't go for the jugular
that would be too easy
and not as fun to watch
I will roar in solitude, but they will all quake when I arrive
not knowing what I can do, but fearing it
Other than that I will be quiet
I realize nothing is safe
no one is safe
I will endure. Lick my wounds. Embrace my scars. Grow stronger than you ever thought possible.
I get who rules the jungle now, motherfucker.
I choose to thrive. I choose to be happy.
That which doesn't kill me makes me stronger...but damn, aren't I strong enough yet???