It's not that this is making me want him. And I've really been feeling very good about myself. I have not been getting into anything with him. I barely speak to him. It's really the situation that makes me feel sad. Not him. I see him for what he is and I totally see through his BS.
What am I doing?
I just told him not to sell it. We will give it to someone to hold on to until the proper time comes.
I'm starting to think I should just not talk to him at all. I'm not going to make spiteful decisions about the house, finances, or kids. I should just do what I want to do and not interact at all.
You do need to talk to him about kids and finances, but that can be very limited. Just the logistics.. Keep imagining a judge over your shoulder.. Sometimes doing this makes me paranoid, but it helps me get my head on straight when I'm letting my emotions take over and thinking with my heart instead of my head..
It's really the situation that makes me feel sad.
Yep, it's your hopes and dreams dying.. It sucks.. It can be confusing sometimes thinking you want him, but it's the fantasy you want. I know you know that.. Just gotta keep reminding yourself..
How did it go with the movie thing last night? How are you feeling today?
I like to think of it like being a train. Full steam ahead of what I want to do. He's going to throw some bumps in the road, but I gotta keep moving forward.. I just recommend talking to an attorney so that you know legally what you should be doing so that your train is heading in the right direction. Once you hear from your attorney what you can and can't be doing, it will be easier to ignore what he thinks of what you're doing..