I miss being held. By anyone. He doesn't hold me. The kids - teenagers - don't hug me. Sometimes when I see my brother in law, I give him an extra long hug. When he looks at me with a question mark, like, "What's wrong?", I just say I was needing a hug.
Recently my 13 year old dog died. She drowned in our pool. It was my fault. She was blind and went outside - on the other side of the house - to pee. I should have watched her every minute.
After it happened, I was curled up in a ball, sobbing for hours. Not one of my boys, or my husband 'held' or hugged me. (I did get a sympathy card...yes...a card...from them the next day.)
I don't know how a person can see someone in such pain and do NOTHING.
Sorry for the t/j, but I was trying to express that I know what you are feeling. Just to be 'back', before all of this was happening."Noone can make you feel inferior without your concent." Eleanor Roosevelt
I will not be vanquished. Rose Kennedy