You can't trust him because he is not worthy of your trust.
If he is deleting texts - he is still lying.
He is rugsweeping and wanting to rejoin his previous life. WRONG.
It has only been since Friday for NC. It is still too early for you to make any decisions. His previous yo-yo actions have shown you he wants what is easy.
R is NOT easy at all. It is hard as hell. Is he in for the tough stuff? The triggers, the anger, the hurt?
On average it takes 2-5 years to recover from an affair. Does he understand this?
He's very frustrated at this limbo, not having a direction.
Tough shit (excuse my language). He needs to be begging for forgiveness and a second chance. He should be thankful you are even speaking to him about the possibility of R.
He needs some serious IC. He is a narcissist that only thinks of himself.
He wants you to decide because he doesn't want to look like more of a schmuck than he already does.
Don't fall prey to his manipulation.
Continue to file. You can always change your mind if he ever gets his head out of his butt.
Keep moving. Love your boys and fight for yourself.