OMFG!!!! The most ridic day EVER!
First the crack agent at Customs & Border Protection pulled me into secondary to search my luggage. Because you know a 46 year-old federal USG official just might be smuggling something in from Mexico
THEN my flight was cancelled so I'm now on the west coast trying to fly to the Midwest.
AND that's not all folks! First there was the crack TSA agent who couldn't cope with the fact that my maiden name as my middle name on my plane ticket didn't match my IDs (which doesn't have it) despite the 2 passports, global entry ID, and official USG government ID ... he had to call his supervisor over (who had the grace to roll her eyes @ him), BUT TSA agent #2 had to SEARCH MY HAIR piled on top of my head in a clip after I had just gone thru the full body X-ray machine. Jesus fucking Christ. Sorry to my Christian friends but saying cheese & rice just doesn't quite cut it right now.
So how is this NB related???? Sigh. Because I'm flying to see my SO TG (the sweet man really needs a better moniker, I'm going to have to think of sth) because I'm now in an LDR. Fuck. The thing I MOST didn't want in a new relationship.
It's temporary, for about 3 months, we reached the decision jointly as the best thing to do ... but I really didn't want this. This trip is good too bc I'm going to meet his family this weekend. He's being awesome. He knows this is a trigger for me. He says over & over just ask, whatever you need to feel safe. And I do. But still the crap trigger feeling still reads it's head at least once a day & I'm using a lot of mental energy to stay on an even keel about this.
Overall I'm grateful. I have a man who suits me, who enriches my life, who will support my career & put it first. But why the LDR?I feel so cursed at the constant challenges that bedevil me on the relationship front. Who did I kill in a former life that has this much mojo to give me crap today?
At least the airport lounge I'm sitting in has a full bar. I really do like my Manhattans