Deeplyscared - that is the multimillion dollar question. I am taking it one day at a time at the moment. The point is that I have been reading a lot about people saying 'you must leave your job' - but this seems to be for the sake of R which I am not in. What do people think. I love my job and have spent 17 years getting here.
Just desserts - yes that hits the nail on the head. It helps to read this. I don't logically pick this which is why I am following my head and praying my heart will catch up soon.