Which is okay. It'd be nice to have my six-pack back again, even if it's not quite as cut. A soft six-pack, so to speak.
Through thick and thin we will survive but he gets only one shot at it!
I'm not what I ought to be. I'm not what I want to be. I'm not what I hope to be. But thank God, I'm not what I used to be.
4 kiddos in lower 20's
ôSlide the weight from your shoulders and move forward. You are afraid you might forget, but you never will. You will forgive and remember."
My life before was being his wife. I took pride in doing everything I could for him. His A was a major slap in the face, all that shit was for nothing. So I pretty much stopped lol.
[This message edited by Lostinthismess at 1:36 PM, August 1st (Thursday)]
That lasted about a month.
I'm kinda vain so as soon as I had enough energy I returned to taking care of my physical appearance.
I had always spent more money on my WW when it came to clothes, so I bought myself a new suit, some new shirts and some accessories that I had been wanting to buy for a long time and didn't feel guilty for spending the money.
I seriously lived for him
I never did this ^^^ ~ I seriously lived for my children though
Change anything? Not a thing. I am fine with who I am, I just hate who my WH became....he needed to do ALL the changing, not me.
The truth hurts, but I have never seen it cause the pain that lies do.
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FYI - I also had a photographer friend do a "taking back my sexuality" photo shoot for me. I used lots of props in the shoot that represented the A, had a makeup artist do me up sexy, and they came out FIERCE! It's my own photographic journal of this journey. I highly recommend it! You will look at them and go, WOW - that's ME!? I'm HOT! It's sort of like revenge without having to cause any more damage.
Was wearing this awful huge knee brace for 2 years, hated it, but the pain was awful.
couldn't walk around the block. That is why I gained weight.
The anger and pain after dday was so intense I could not eat or sleep. I got it out by using the elliptical. The physical pain was easier to take than the mental.
I worked out well though, no brace, yesterday I ran!!!
So happy about this, I feel like I have my body back, my physical strength.
Down to a size 7, same as high school.
Lots of new clothes, I could fit and extra person in the old.
I would now like to be known as Can!
dday October 21,2012
dday December 20, 2013
attempted R, it was all a lie
I have now regained my sanity and now doing things for me. I have purchased nice age appropriate clothes, no boob job thank you, I love my small ones. Back to sweats because they are comfy. And going for the natural look with min makeup. I love the new me. Still keeping my hair though, it's cool.
Another DDay I lost a bunch of weight.
This past Dday, I gained a BUNCH of weight.
I once coloured my hair red, but I think that was more so due to the death of my mom.. though the DDay after she passed I dyed it BRIGHT RED, because I knew he'd hate it
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