[This message edited by inshockandhurt at 12:58 PM, August 5th (Monday)]
"Forgiveness means giving up all hope of a better past."
Weddings were really tough for me too. The vows can be triggery and all that happiness doesn't help when you are hurting so much inside. I hope that some venting has helped you out.
Think of the haters in your life as sandpaper; they’ll scratch you up time and time again but in the end you’re polished, smooth, and spotless..while they end up useless
We make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give.
If I could make a suggestion: get outside and enjoy that beautiful state. Smell it, look at it, feel it. Walk on the beach, if you can.
I so understand weddings and how triggery they can be. Hugs!!
me (WW/BS): 48
4 kiddos in mid 20's
Me: I didn't sign up for this.
Him: you're already in this. All you can do is resign...
Know what I realized while I was in the bathroom though? I'm a f-ing dragon. Yup, that's right. I cry pink-sparkly magical tears, so that makes me a goddamn dragon, right? Who cares if it was just the effect of my make-up?? I am a goddamn dragon and I can get through this shit!
And so can you. You don't have to be a dragon, but it helps. Wishing you strength, inshockandhurt.
married 2y, together 2.5y
1 beautiful daughter, 23m
"Someday soon, I'm going to put my life together; Win or lose, I'm starting over again."