I still struggle a lot with triggers. Part of the pain is not only that I am reminded of the A, but that I am feeling like my H is suddenly reminded also, and thinking about the OW. My fear is of course that he would be thinking about her with longing.
My H wanted the A to end, he confessed the whole thing to me on his own, he is remorseful, there is NC... but the EA/PA went on for almost a year, and I have a hard time believing he can just 'forget' someone he saw almost every day, who made him feel like a million dollars. He is in deep pain over the A itself, but he seems absolutely content to have washed his hands of her and to never see or hear from her again.
I ask him if he has any anger towards her at all, and he says, 'To be angry at her, I would have to care about her. I don't have any feelings for her at all.'
He says he doesn't want to think about her or be reminded of what he did. So my question is, if and when he has his own triggers, are they truly painful like they are for me? Or do they have the potential to make him miss her? I am afraid that distance from the A is going to make him forget how much devastation it caused, and that there will be more 'fog' and/or re-writing of story.
I am also afraid that there is something seriously broken in him, that he is actually able to have an intimate relationship with someone for a year, and then just block them from his mind. Just wondering, is this compartmentalization, or is this a 'you're all dead inside' kind of thing?