Some of the beliefs trashed by myself. Value system thrown away. Some broken promises which cant ever be recovered.I understand. That person feels like a stranger to me.
But someone posted once (I think it was Floridaredman) that that was, in fact, you, not a stranger...it was you.
So, I acknowledged that I was capable of such behaviors, and owned it, and decided to work on that person I allowed myself to be, and promise myself that I wouldn't behave that way again.
I decided to always act like someone I could be proud of and work on myself.
I had to let go of the anguish of being that person and not let it have power over me. I need to focus on the positive and put my energy there.