On the drive back it occurred to me that I don't want to be with a person that has the capacity to do this to another human being, let alone a faithful and loving husband of almost 8 years. I've read that the average R takes at least 3-5 years. She'll be in her mid 40's by then. She is not trying to string it along and has made every indication that she is moving on so I will as well. I want to start over. I want to have a family. I want to be able to trust again. I don't want to live the life of checking her phone records and emails every day. I don't want to go to bed with her and think about her actions. I don't want to be with a person that doesn't want to be with me. I deserve to love again. I deserve to be happy again. I can't have those things with her. The sadness is so overpowering but my new opportunities and new life are so exciting to think about.
I could have written this myself. All these reasons made me file for divorce from the (I thought) love of my life.
We can't live a life like the one you describe. Take the plunge and live the life you deserve.
"You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have." ~ Bob Marley