He hasn't even been gone a day yet and I am going crazy trying to find things to bust him on.
I downloaded what I could from our wireless provider on texts and phone calls.
There have been none from OW in the past 1 1/2 months. That's good right?
However she still works at the same company. Of course he did change his hours so they work separate shifts, but at the end of his there is a chance he can run into her.
Last night we were up for ever it seemed. He said one thing bothered him about me. I guess when OW and he would have lunch at work together she would warm up their food and even if he was late getting there she wouldn't touch any of the food. He said it was like she respected him to wait for him to come to eat.
I wanted to lash out about her respecting him....lmao. She is married and is now screwing someone else from work. He knows she used him. However he still seems to be hurt by it. Will that ever end? He did mention he didn't like to talk about her or the A.
We start MC the day after he gets back from his trip.
He is with his brothers, nephew and an uncle. I really have no need to worry about it. He's actually worried it's going to be so boring that he's gonna get depressed.
He has been more attentive yet still distant. I told him last night that I still want to slap and punch and kick him but that I've decided to act with love and respect and express my feelings verbally in a non combative way.
I did ask him last week if he would start wearing his wedding ring again. He took it off about 3 1/2 yrs ago when our last MC went south. He said he really wasn't ready to wear it, but decided to wear it and he even had me bring it to him one day because he forgot to put it on before work.
I am boiling with anxiety I think. I don't know what to do and how to do it.
We've been sexual, so that is not lacking. I however at times want to retreat, but I really want the sex.
Do I ask him if there is other stuff that maybe she did that I didn't/don't (non sexual) do that makes him feel good about himself? I had been terrible about it in the past.
I heard the song "Cold as Ice" by Foreigner and I was like that is me and almost busted out in tears at work.
I don't want to be that person anymore. I know I was horrible.
I am beside myself with anger, hurt, emotions from one extreme to the next.
Not sure how I am going to be the next 5 days. I don't want to be negative or fall back into depression.
He was talking with some guys who've done MC and they told him the MC doesn't tell or give them advice as what to do. He's like what's the point then?
Any thoughts on that?