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stroppy_wanadoo
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Default  Posted: 12:21 AM, August 22nd (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Holy hell, it's fucking difficult.


Posts: 1037 | Registered: Jul 2006
Going_Under
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Default  Posted: 12:34 AM, August 22nd (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

(((stroppy_wanadoo)))

The worst thing ever. I lost my 28-year-old niece in June and I still cannot wrap my head around it.

I am so sorry.


BS 42 (Me)
FWH 45
M 23 years
Three Children ages 20, 17, and 8
D-Day 08/10/2004, 7-Year LTA that ended 4 months before D-Day.

Evil never thinks it's evil, it always has a really good reason. ~ Joan of Arcadia, TV Series


Posts: 4558 | Registered: Aug 2006 | From: Pacific Northwest
Kajem
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Default  Posted: 7:48 AM, August 22nd (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

(((((((stroppy_wanadoo))))))))


I trust you is a better compliment than I love you, because you may not trust the person you love, but you can always love the person you trust. - Unknown
Relationships are like sharing a book, it doesn't work if you're not on the same page.

Posts: 5264 | Registered: Jul 2012 | From: Florida
tushnurse
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Default  Posted: 8:35 AM, August 22nd (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

((((STroppy))))

Are you in any support groups? I know it's very hard in these early days, and you may not be ready yet. But if she had hospice, contact them, they will put you in touch with the folks that can help and have been in your shoes.

Let it out, cry, scream, whatever you feel. Take time for you.

(((((and strength)))))


Me: FBS
Him: FWS
Kids: 15 & 17
Married for 22 years now, was 16 at the time. .
D-Day Sept 26 2008
Fully R'd, and Happy Happy Happy

Posts: 8709 | Registered: Oct 2008 | From: St. Louis
jo2love
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Default  Posted: 8:37 AM, August 22nd (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

(((stroppy)))

I am so sorry.


Posts: 35875 | Registered: Mar 2011
MovingUpward
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Default  Posted: 8:39 AM, August 22nd (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

(((stroppy)))


AKA Moo

Think of the haters in your life as sandpaper; they’ll scratch you up time and time again but in the end you’re polished, smooth, and spotless..while they end up useless

We make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give.


Posts: 52602 | Registered: Jun 2007 | From: Big Blue Nation
stroppy_wanadoo
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Default  Posted: 8:53 AM, August 22nd (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Thank you all.

Hospice had been called and consulted, but I don't think she had transitioned to hospice care yet when she passed. Still, I will call them.

So many people around me, all being so supportive and loving, and I feel worse each day. I've screamed, I've cried, I've laughed, I've seethed. It's the anger that frightens me and upsets me the most. I'm trying to let it go. I can't. It builds.

20 years of talking to her every day... and I can't anymore. And it makes me so, so angry.


Posts: 1037 | Registered: Jul 2006
ajsmom
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Default  Posted: 9:00 AM, August 22nd (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

((((stroppy))))

It's probably the worst thing to have to do.

AJ's MOM


Fidelity isn't a feeling...it's a choice.

"Truth has no special time of its own. Its hour is now - always." - Albert Schweitzer
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DS - 31 - Yikes!


Posts: 21071 | Registered: Dec 2007 | From: Been Through Hell...On My Way Back
stroppy_wanadoo
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Default  Posted: 9:11 AM, August 22nd (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Forgive me as a use this as a journal for a minute... just need to let it out and let it be "heard."

I am so very angry with her alcoholic, abusive asshat of a husband. I don't feel he has the right to grieve. For the past 6+ years he has made her life a living hell. She needed this site. She may have even read it, as I refered her here enough. But as with everything, she always wanted to be strong and handle things on her own. Fiercely stubborn. Fiercely proud.

He ran around on her for years and lied lied lied. She put up with it for the sake of her boys. And now she's not there for those two kids - 11 and 9 (his bday is on Saturday...). How will they survive?

She passed on their 13th wedding anniversary. I can't help but want to think that was her ultimate FUCK YOU to him. But it's turning into something for him to use to his advantage... Oh poor asshat. His wife died on their anniversary!!! How horrible for him!!!

And do you know what he did? He brought her an anniversary gift while she lay dying in the hospital Monday. Hadn't bought her a gift or card in years. Not even for her 40th bday this past March. A gift! Nice, right? That fucker brought her lingerie. A fucking neglige. Which is even more ridiculous if you knew how simple and almost tom-boyish my bestie was. His sex addicted mind continued to insult her to the end.

And just over 24 hours after her passing, his latest "just friend" was invited into her home. Standing in her kitchen. Her sister who has been staying there this week to take care of the boys was so sickened she needed to leave because she felt she was interrupting something.

So vile he is. When her cancer returned last fall, he sighed and said "Now am I going to have to hear about cancer all the time?" He was verbally and physically abusive in so many ways.

Yet everyone is flocking to him to give their love. He.does.not.deserve.a.flying.fucking.thing.

But here's my mantra for today... I'm trying to use it to let go of some anger. He can't hurt her any more.

He can't hurt her any more, and she has nothing left around her but love.


Posts: 1037 | Registered: Jul 2006
metamorphisis
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Default  Posted: 9:16 AM, August 22nd (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

That is so horrible it made me cry. And want to vomit. How heinously unfair. I wish horrid things upon that man. I wish for him to wake one day with the full understanding and weight of the hell he put her through..and that it's too late. Too damn late you fool.
That and that alone will be his punishment for being such an awful man.

Stroppy.. I lost someone very very dear to me suddenly. She was a close friend for years and years and as we got older we had grown apart. I won't say it still doesn't hurt, but I will say at the risk of sounding completely nuts. She will come see you. And she will tell you she's ok and you'll get to tell her how much you hurt. You'll know it in your bones. She doesn't want you to hurt like this.



“We don't see things as they are; we see them as we are.”... Anais Nin

Posts: 44957 | Registered: Sep 2006
lostmommy
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Default  Posted: 1:36 PM, August 22nd (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine losing my best friend. I hope you can find peace at this very difficult time. You'll be in my thoughts. (((stroppy)))


Me (BS): 32, Mommy to J: 2 1/2 Divorced: 4/10/13
Sometimes you find yourself in the middle of nowhere, and sometimes, in the middle of nowhere, you find yourself

Posts: 485 | Registered: Sep 2011 | From: NY
nowiknow23
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Default  Posted: 1:44 PM, August 22nd (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

((((stroppy))))


You can call me NIK

"If you carry joy in your heart, you can heal any moment."
- Carlos Santana


Posts: 25735 | Registered: Aug 2011
tushnurse
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Default  Posted: 1:50 PM, August 22nd (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

(((Stroppy))))
Try to let it go. She did. She was able to give him the ultimate F you. She is no longer in pain, and only knows happiness and love now. Karma will come crash in on him at some point. It has to. You may even be lucky enough to see it.

Try to remember the good stuff.

((((and strength))))


Me: FBS
Him: FWS
Kids: 15 & 17
Married for 22 years now, was 16 at the time. .
D-Day Sept 26 2008
Fully R'd, and Happy Happy Happy

Posts: 8709 | Registered: Oct 2008 | From: St. Louis
click4it
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Default  Posted: 2:23 PM, August 22nd (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

(((((stroppy))))))

My heart really goes out to you. It IS fucking diffcult.

We are here.


Me: 42
Two boys: 17 and 14
Divorced 12-13-05
d-day 10-02-01

Laughter will cure life's ills. Have you had your laugh today?


Posts: 25628 | Registered: Jun 2002 | From: California
lost_in_toronto
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Default  Posted: 6:05 PM, August 22nd (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

(((stroppy)))

My mother lost her best friend at the same age to cancer. That was twenty-five years ago, and I was only a teenager, but I remember how hard my mom grieved. My heart goes out to you.


Me: BS/39
Him: WS/37
DDay: August 23, 2009
Together 14 years.
Reconciled.

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