WH's A was with a coworker. While they do not work for the same group or are in the same room anymore, they still work for the same company. The lab she works in is 3 doors down from his office. WH has been able to avoid contact or sightings of her pretty well. He finds ways to get out of meetings and has told me that if there isn't an excuse to get out if it (or if there is a surprise training or meeting and OW is there), that he would just leave or not go. Is there truly NC? Not really. She really can pop in at any moment. He can turn the corner and she can be there. Many are of the opinion that without full NC, there can not be true reconciliation. And most of me believes that. I don't feel safe. It keeps the A in the forefront of my mind. I don't even want to think about if he saw her and where his first thoughts would jump to. So, he can leave. But with him leaving comes more losses. For example, we couldn't afford to have another child. Then isn't that letting her take that from me? Losing another dream just to get away from her. How many times have you heard that the best revenge is a life well lived. Wouldn't him staying there and her getting to see our family thrive in how much he has changed and loves me, watching our family grow, and seeing us not have to give up more to be away from her and having everything we wanted, revenge enough? But then I think by living like that and knowing it's also "revenge" it means I'm letting her and the A take up too much space in my head. Obviously I would have to really damn trust him to be ok with him staying there. But it's a total catch 22. What do I need to prove that? Time...and time there.
So this isn't a giant problem at the moment. Just would like to hear your thoughts. Maybe point something out I'm not seeing.
My wifes AP drops his kids off at school the same time my wife does. This is how there affair spawned.
He continues to park his truck between our home and the school. Everyday my wife runs the chance of seeing him...like your husband does his AP. I understand your situation is more constant....my run-ins only happen around 8 am and 3 pm. One of the reasons we bought the home we bought was it is 2 blocks from school...my wife stays home with the kids...she could and does walk them to school.
I have thought about selling our home and moving...just haven't done that....just not sure it will fix what is broken. I have known families to move to get kids out of drugs...only to find they get into drugs at the new town.
It would be nice to get away from triggers....which abound thanks to my wifes active affair life....but is that dispelling a symptom while ignoring the cause?
I seriously don't have an answer for myself or you. Just letting you know I share your concern.
Ultimately, if my wife and I can rise to a level of maturity neither of us has seen before....all of this is a moot point. Right now...at 10:05 pm august 22, 2013...we have much growing to do.
I pray you are further along this maturity scale.
God be with us all.
[This message edited by blakesteele at 10:07 PM, August 22nd (Thursday)]
only to find they get into drugs at the new town.
This is how I see it currently. Hlessons AP wasn't the problem, he was. If he doesn't fix the issue, doesn't matter who he is around, our M isn't safe.
Your H has to fix his issues, the OW isn't the issue anymore. JMHO
Look how quickly and concisely you stated compared to my post.
My lengthy posts display how I interact with my wife...I am trying to be more to the point.
I could learn a thing or two from people like you (and my wife). I think my way of interaction is one reason I am so very tired right now.
[This message edited by blakesteele at 6:17 AM, August 23rd (Friday)]
DDay - June 2013, A was 2+ months
In MC & Reconciling
Global editing disclaimer - I edit almost everything I post, and I am not going to post why every time. ; )
It is entirely possible that even if your husband took a drop in pay that within a reasonable amount of time that he could make it up. Also, you could modify your standard of living if having another baby is so important to you. I mean, you probably shouldn't be thinking about it in the next year or two, anyway.
I would think him changing jobs is the best thing to do. The rest sound like rationalizations for not rocking the boat.
I don't know if it is an option for you, but my WH told his manager and HR. and they were extremely accommodating and things moved really fast. They told him that it was not the first nor the last, and they don't want grounds for a law suit, so with a week locations and his team changed. They kept it confidentical and were able to make justification to the company why strategically it made sense. So unfortunately, there are a few more people who know, but I will take that over the day to day contact.
He has been there 16 years and is higher on the food chain. Ow had not even been there a year, so it was a humbling experience for my WH to be the one to change.
The change was necessary for both of us. I won't reconcile while they have day to day contact or even a chance to "pop in" to their offices or cross in hallways, etc. He needed to get away from the daily reminder of what he did to his family