I would be interested in what your MC advises to rebuilding intimacy.
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[This message edited by blakesteele at 1:46 AM, August 23rd (Friday)]
If your husband pushed this, then I hope he is getting help as well. I don't mean to sound puritanical, but the fact that you sounds so dissassociated from sex makes me think that. I am not judging you morally. . .to each his/her own, but I think it is apparent this was very destructive to you.
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