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hexed
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Default  Posted: 1:13 AM, August 23rd (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

X and I met at a UPS store with a notary to finalize the papers. We met at a restaurant across the street actually to review them one last time. We had a fun light hearted conversation and were laughing when we went into the UPS store.

A young guy... probably mid 20s was handling things for us. He asked for the name of one of the documents that was being notarized. I told him. its ".....divorce....". His jaw pretty much hit the counter. He couldn't shut up about it. He kept saying things about how we didn't seem like people getting a divorce. How chatty and comfortable we were. blah blah blah...genuine surprise."

I knew I'd cry. I had a long bit of driving to be done that I had scheduled for after the signing. I knew I'd need to process. My X has been in my life since first grade. He was the one who listened to me cry and bitch when my parents divorced in the 7th grade. He loved me through the awkward years of HS when everyone else thought I was a dork. He's been a constant in my life. Constant doesn't = good but he's been there. I knew I'd need to process. I knew I'd cry. I was prepared.

But that guy in the UPS store ruined. I teared up right there. Had to put one my sun glasses and look the other way. Damn it! I didn't want to cry in front of X.

He was off to celebrate OW's Bday. He says he's sad but I just don't think he really knows about sad

All of that said, I'm glad its done. There is a nice bit of peace with it.


But that's just a lot of water
Underneath a bridge I burned
And there's no use in backtracking
Around corners I have turned

“Many of us crucify ourselves between two thieves - regret for the past and fear of the future.” -foulton oursler


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click4it
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Default  Posted: 1:26 AM, August 23rd (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Wow hexed....that made me tear up.

((((((((((hexed)))))))))))

wishing you peace.


Me: 41
Two boys: 17 and 13
Divorced 12-13-05
d-day 10-02-01

Laughter will cure life's ills. Have you had your laugh today?


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c6284x
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Default  Posted: 1:54 AM, August 23rd (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I remember my trip to the UPS store. For some strange reason I was embarrassed that the papers we were having signed were divorce papers.

There is something about seeing your names on the papers with the words dissolution of marriage on it to be overwhelming. We signed less than 3 months after my dday, so it was still raw for me. She on the othere hand was getting this out of the way for Mr. Perfect.


Posts: 21 | Registered: Jun 2013 | From: Florida
Williesmom
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Default  Posted: 6:51 AM, August 23rd (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

((Hexed))

I know exactly what you mean.


You can stuff your sorries in a sack, mister. -George Costanza
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cayc
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Default  Posted: 7:11 AM, August 23rd (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

(((hexed)))


"The difference between involvement and commitment is like ham and eggs. The chicken is involved, the pig is committed." -Martina Navratilova
"The question isn't who is going to let me; it's who is going to stop me." -Ayn Rand

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She11ybeanz
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Default  Posted: 7:22 AM, August 23rd (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

((hexed)) My heart really hurts for you.....but I know it will get better! Hang in there sweetie!


"Sometimes your knight in shining armor ...is just a douchebag in tin foil!!"

ME - BW - 35
HIM - XWH - 39
D day: November 15th, 2009
Married: 5 Years, together 8
Divorced: December 13th, 2010
New Beginning: Piper/8-3-12


Posts: 2710 | Registered: Feb 2010 | From: Virginia
Weatherly
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Default  Posted: 7:22 AM, August 23rd (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

(((((((((hugs)))))))))


Me-29,Two boys, 10 and 8

It will all be ok in the end. If it's not ok, it's not the end

Happily remarried to a wonderful man (Aussie). I think I found the right guy and the right finger this time.


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cmego
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Default  Posted: 7:35 AM, August 23rd (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

((((hexed))))


me...BS, 43 years old, 2 small kids
WS, 41, multiple gay affairs
M 15 years, together 17
Divorced

"For whatever we lose, like a you or a me, it's always ourselves we find in the sea" ee cummings


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nowiknow23
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Default  Posted: 7:45 AM, August 23rd (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

((((hexed))))


You can call me NIK

Wise men talk because they have something to say; fools, because they have to say something.
- Plato


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FaithFool
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Default  Posted: 7:47 AM, August 23rd (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Of course you did. Sheesh, you're human.

Onward and upward!


DDay: June 15, 2008
Mistakenly married Mr. Superfreak
20 years of OWs, WTF?
Divorced Dec 26, 2011
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to sing in the lifeboats". -- Voltaire

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burnedcanuckEMS
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Default  Posted: 9:40 AM, August 23rd (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I understand where you are coming from. I have known my ex for over half of my life. We were friends in high school, went our own ways, then met ten years later and married. Its hard having your best friend betray you with infidelity. Through our divorce people were also shocked - we had two appointments we went to together - one was to sign the legal papers when the house sold, the other was his loan appt with the bank so he could buy out our fifth wheel from me. Both the lawyer and the loans officer were shocked we came to the appts together. It still makes me sad even though I am glad its over.


Me: BW 38, Him: WH 37
M: 07/07/07
DDay: 06/09/12
Divorce Granted on December 5, 2012 - fasted divorce ever (thanks to my good lawyer) and I am not looking back with ANY regrets!!

"And this above all else, to thine own self be true"


Posts: 233 | Registered: Jun 2012 | From: Alberta
MissMoneypenny
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Default  Posted: 9:53 AM, August 23rd (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I feel for you ,Hexed ! I am not yet divorced, haven`t even filed yet due to financial reasons but I know once we both sit in the Divorce Court we will both cry !


" The only thing I have in common with OW is our birthday "

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hexed
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Default  Posted: 10:17 AM, August 23rd (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Thanks all. I'm just feeling a little out of sorts.

Good grief its been nearly 6 years now. At any point along the way he could've stopped all this and he knows exactly how. His actions have always spoken loud and clear. Because of that I was able to move on from the M.

I've never been able to fully let go of my own mental idealized concept of M. That's the part that's been disappointing.

The young man's comments were just like cold water b/c we were standing there laugh and chatting the same way we did when we were first together. All the hurt and anger that makes communicating in a bad M difficult have long since gone. Its much easier to see the good parts again. He's still an alcoholic. He's still got all sorts of traits that never want to deal with again but I can now see the parts of him that I liked.

The young man needed to be quiet about it. I didn't need a reminder of what was.


But that's just a lot of water
Underneath a bridge I burned
And there's no use in backtracking
Around corners I have turned

“Many of us crucify ourselves between two thieves - regret for the past and fear of the future.” -foulton oursler


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ajsmom
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Default  Posted: 10:27 AM, August 23rd (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

It is a very sad moment, indeed.

In defense of the UPS guy, he probably just blurted out what he saw. I'm sure hearing the word "divorce" was probably the last thing he expected to hear, especially given how you two presented yourselves.

Oh, and when you take a trip down memory lane, remember ALL the other times you had to defend his sorry ass with his drinking and carousing and overall mistreatment of you and your DS. Detachment from an alcoholic is tough. I know. I'm in the same walk.

You'll get through this.

Guaranteed.

AJ's MOM


Fidelity isn't a feeling...it's a choice.

"Truth has no special time of its own. Its hour is now - always." - Albert Schweitzer
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Me: BW - Him: 200+ # tumor removed 7/09
DS - 31 - Yikes!


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hexed
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Default  Posted: 10:54 AM, August 23rd (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Thanks AJ

I know all the bad stuff. In some ways its harder when the good stuff is made real again.

I think I would've been OK if the UPS guy hadn't kept on and on about it. One comment was fine but come on...once was enough. I didn't need half a dozen comments about it!

I had to step away for a minute to compose myself so I was making copies. X paid. He JOKINGLY asked for half the cost of the whole thing. ($15). I suggested he could pay his half of the filing fees ($250). Funny -- he didn't give me $235 damn it!


But that's just a lot of water
Underneath a bridge I burned
And there's no use in backtracking
Around corners I have turned

“Many of us crucify ourselves between two thieves - regret for the past and fear of the future.” -foulton oursler


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Crescita
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Default  Posted: 11:01 AM, August 23rd (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

(((hexed)))


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burnedcanuckEMS
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Default  Posted: 11:14 AM, August 23rd (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Mine is an alcoholic too, and addicted to pot, and god knows what else since around the affair I strongly suspected he got into hard drugs. Despite it all I am the one and only person in his life who ever truly saw his potential. Its sad he wouldn't ever go get help. Thinking of his good traits makes me so sad. Sad for his spirit and the fact that he is letting his addictions take over his life.


Me: BW 38, Him: WH 37
M: 07/07/07
DDay: 06/09/12
Divorce Granted on December 5, 2012 - fasted divorce ever (thanks to my good lawyer) and I am not looking back with ANY regrets!!

"And this above all else, to thine own self be true"


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Grace and Flowers
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Default  Posted: 11:25 AM, August 23rd (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I've never been able to fully let go of my own mental idealized concept of M. That's the part that's been disappointing.

The young man's comments were just like cold water b/c we were standing there laugh and chatting the same way we did when we were first together. All the hurt and anger that makes communicating in a bad M difficult have long since gone. Its much easier to see the good parts again. He's still an alcoholic. He's still got all sorts of traits that never want to deal with again but I can now see the parts of him that I liked.


(((((hexed)))))

I feel the EXACT same way. I'm so sorry.

Eta: sorry, don't know how to do quotes

[This message edited by SadMad2012 at 11:26 AM, August 23rd (Friday)]


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lostmommy
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Default  Posted: 12:57 PM, August 23rd (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

(((hexed)))


Me (BS): 32, Mommy to J: 2 1/2 Divorced: 4/10/13
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NaiveAgain
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Default  Posted: 1:28 PM, August 23rd (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

(((hexed))) I'm so sorry for your loss.


Original WS D-Day July 10, 2008. Kept lying, he is gone.
New WS (2 EA's, no PA) 12-3-13
If you don't like where you are, then change it. You are not a tree.

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