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TXwifemom
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Default  Posted: 9:35 PM, August 25th (Sunday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Frankly, I enjoy a guy's perspective on this one. Thanks for letting me live vicariously through you...... Crushing her wedding ring, that's classic!!!!!

Sorry about your finger.... I hope it wasn't the middle finger; you may need that one later.


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Uhtred
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Default  Posted: 9:44 PM, August 25th (Sunday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Thank you for all of your responses. I had a IC session today and it helped quite a bit. As for the question about my wife being scared of me. That's ridiculous. My wife is not scared of me. She is devastated and is showing true remorse which I appreciate. It still doesn't change what happen but it's a step. I'm working one day at a time and am starting to realize that I'm not the only one in the world this has happened to. As far as the other man's wife, they are in counseling and still together last I heard. She's welcome to come here if she chooses but my counselor suggested that I cease all communication with them " her" period. It does no good to sit and have a bash session on our WW' spouses. Can you post pics in this forum?


Me: BH 32years old DDay 4-29-13
Her: WW 33 years old
“Yet each man kills the thing he loves
By each let this be heard
Some do it with a bitter look
Some with a flattering word
The coward does it with a kiss
The brave man with a sword”

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jjct
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Default  Posted: 6:06 AM, August 26th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

http://survivinginfidelity.com/faq.asp#FAQ1

Yes you can.


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jb3199
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Default  Posted: 6:18 AM, August 26th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

You can, I believe, it is just that I am the wrong person to explain how. I am sure someone will come along soon with the proper know-how.

The one thing that is blatantly obvious to me is that we are how many pages into this thread, and we haven't been focusing on "where do we go from here?". You did what you did to OM, and as far as I am concerned, he had it coming. But the focus on the *anger issues* has to stop---or at least be put on the back burner for awhile.

You say that your wife is showing remorse, and that may be true, but make sure that you understand the true definition of remorse as it is used around here, and also understand that true remorse often takes time to be achieved. And I am not saying that in any way to minimize your wife's feelings; I am saying that because it often takes time...a lot of time...for the true extent of the damage to settle in. As devastated as you are right now, if your wife is truly remorseful, she is in a whole lot more pain that you, because she not only shares your pain(the empathy), the other betrayed spouses pain that she helped cause, and the fact that she betrayed herself, and damaged her own soul. And now she has the unbelievable task of trying to repair the damage of (3) lives that she was directly involved in hurting.

As for you, all I can say is that everyone handles this a little differently. Our stories are very similar, yet uniquely different---especially when it comes to the healing process. As brutal as you feel right now, I can tell you that you are worlds ahead of others here by the description you give of your wife. If she is remorseful, then I assume that she is actively trying to repair the damage and earn your trust back. That is something many members here NEVER get. I know it may not mean that much right now, but over time, you will realize how huge this is.

Healing takes time, no matter how much effort is put in. Sometimes infidelity is just a dealbreaker, and that is okay, but it may take you time to realize this. You may never be able to accept what has happened, and come to an understanding that your marriage is over. But only you can decide that. And your wife should already know and understand this.

The saying around here is not to make any rash decisions, especially when both partners are committed to trying to make things work. But that doesn't mean that you shouldn't learn what your potential future options may be. Don't feel bad about consulting and attorney, just to understand where you may land if divorce is an eventuality. I say this in an attempt to make your reconciliation attempt better, because knowledge is power, and knowing all of your options is what helps you pick yourself up off of the floor. IC/MC will hopefully help. The NC that was suggested is a very good idea.

The bottom line is that even though you feel like you have made no progress since discovery, you have come further than you think. The mind movies will start to get less and less frequent, and the continued effort from your wife will help in your recovery. When I first came to this site, and read that it takes, on average, 2-5 years to fully reconcile, I was like "how the hell can I make it years, when it hurts this bad right now?". But time does go on, and the pain does ease. Yours will too.

Your old marriage is gone, but that doesn't mean that the two of you can't build a new, good, healthy one. It just takes time to let the old marriage go.

ETA---Thanks, jj.

[This message edited by jb3199 at 6:19 AM, August 26th (Monday)]


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WW-44
2 boys-17 & 20(special needs)
Married 21yrs.(together 27yrs.)

All work and no play has just cost me my wife--Gary Puckett
D-Day: 9/18/09 D-Day#2: 2/19/10 The Marriage Killer: 6/6/11
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Reegz
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Happy  Posted: 11:10 AM, August 26th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Just as Uhtred, I am harboring violent and negative thoughts towards the OM who tried to destroy my family and I want to beat him to a pulp IN FRONT of my wife, so I can see her reaction to her former lover being literally destroyed. Each day the feeling subsides a little. Think of your family and the fact that they won't be able to see you again if you're in jail for beating or even killing this fool. Like you I'm in MMA and I could do real damage to people. Legally speaking, your skills make YOU a lethal weapon. Please be careful. Your family needs you.

I am seeing and was seeing a psychiatrist and I think you need to do the same before you do something that you CANNOT take back. I'm in the same situation as you. But I implore you to please get an individual therapist for yourself. Like you, I'm in Marriage Counseling, but you need help because like me, it sounds like a terrible thing happened to a good man and you don't deserve it. Hang in there brother. No matter what happens, your life is important. I can't imagine losing a finger over the jerk who tried to destroy my family. I'm so sorry.

Focus your energy on your wife. While this man took advantage of her, she is still 100% responsible for her affair. If not with this guy - who sounds a bit like a predator - with someone else. She has issues and needs therapy. Please lawyer up, especially if you have kids.

Hope for the best but prepare for the worst.

______________________
Me: 40 BH
Her: 36 WW
D-Day: Got inklings/clues of EA and PA on May 27, 2013
Hard Discovery/Proof - August 20, 2013.
Kids: 4 and 2 - Beautiful Girls
In early recovery and weighing my options based on progress. No major decisions will be made until we have at least 6 therapy sessions.


Me: 40 BH
Her: 36 WW
Clues Discovered - EA - May/June 2013.
D-Day - Confirmation of EA and discovery of PA - August 20, 2013.
4 to 5 month affair.
We are in recovery. Taking it a day a time.

Posts: 45 | Registered: Aug 2013 | From: New York
sobrokenhearted
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Default  Posted: 12:02 PM, August 26th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

My story is a female version of yours, except I didn't get to beat the woman. I tell myself if I could just hurt her in some way, I would get over the daily pain. It will be 2 years in February and I still wake up everyday consumed with everything about their relationship. I wish I could tell you that time will heal all wounds, but there are some wounds that are cut down to the bone. Unfortunately, yours really did. I am so sorry for your pain. I have so many people telling me to do this and do that, but the truth is I feel like nothing will ever take this pain away!


BS-Me 50yrs old
WS-Him 50yrs old
OW-40yrs old
Married-32yrs

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keptmyword
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Default  Posted: 6:27 PM, August 26th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Uhtred,

Your story sounds so very much like mine. The guy my XWW traded sex-for-flattery with was 52 and she is 34 - old enough to be her father. He is a worthless piece of shit who has a reputation for preying on and having sex with weak-minded, dysfunctional women - like my XWW. My marriage was good and I worked hard to support her and my two young children. I knew my wife had some self-esteem issues but thought her boundaries were very strong especially anything regarding her family. I was so very wrong.

The way your WW's affair began is fairly similar to the way mine did. I also knew him. He would look me in the eye, shake my hand, and talk to my children - all the while sleeping with my wife and my children's mother behind our backs. His, and her cowardice still stuns me to this day. I am ashamed that this is part of the cloth that my children are cut from. It is my mission to steer them away from the path she has taken in life.

I also had a confrontation with her affair guy and she was there too. I saw her car in his driveway and decided to confront - not as a husband, but strictly as a father. I wanted to and could have beaten this man down but I knew as I approached and started pounding on his door that if I did that I would end up in jail with assault charges, lose my job, and this coward probably would have filed a civil suit against me. I went there to tell both of them, on his turf, to their faces, that they were fucking cowards who have been hiding behind mine and my sons back for the last year. To tell her that she threw her family away and her children's foundation for a worthless piece of shit.

It took quite a while for someone to finally open the door. It was her with her tail between her legs telling me they were just talking and pleading with me to go. I kept pounding while yelling loudly for this coward to come out. Several minutes later he comes to the door and stays several feet inside from the entrance because he knew that I was not likely to rush into his house and assault him. He asked if I was there to fight him. I laughed and told him "No, I don't fight for shit that betrays me and my sons" as I looked at her. And actually, that was the truth. She was simply NOT worth a fight.

Now, here is my point.

You have to try and look at this from the warped perspective she has and understand it to get why fighting this guy was not a good thing. (Mind you, fuck him - he indeed deserved it. He would not want you to have done to him what he did to you and your family so again, fuck him.) your WW was seeking validation and self-worth from the attention of another man. She loved the attention and flattery so much that she was willing to risk losing everything for it.

For quite some time she was able to have her cake and eat it too. She had you at home, working to provide, and being a father to your kids, and she also had her secret responsibility-free, bullshit flattery-filled fantasy life with the adultery guy. She had two men that both wanted her - lots of feeling of validation.

But, that state of mind was based on the deceitful secret she had. Her fear was that if you found out her secret that you would leave her and end the marriage. Thus, losing a great part of that giving her stability and self-worth. When the secret became known instead of her fear being realized and her losing you - you rushed over to the adultery guys place and fought him. Now, in her mind she now has a sense that here were TWO men that were fighting OVER HER. That can actually be, in her twisted thinking, somewhat rewarding. She has not one, but two men vying for her affections. That's awfully validating to someone with those kinds of issues. In the end, what could happen is that going over there and beating the shit out of that asshole could have actually given her some tacit approval for committing adultery.

I wasn't going to give my XWW that satisfaction that I was fighting for her after she betrayed me in the ultimate way. Fuck that. She was initially remorseless and continued with the guy while saying nothing was going on. I filed for divorce. She came crying for reconciliation. I divorced her. She still wants to reconcile. I don't accept that shit in my life and my kids need to see that one deserves better, and can do better than that.

By the way, these events are all seemingly recent. Right now, I'm sure the adultery guy still has some sense of guilt over what he did but that may fade over the next few weeks or months especially as he continues to deal with his injuries and expenses incurred because of them. His guilt may turn to anger and you could still find yourself facing assault charges and a lawsuit filed against you for pain, suffering, medical expenses, etc. I'm sure there would be a small army of lawyers drooling to take his case. The fact that he was committing adultery with your wife would not be a defense in a court of law. Your wife was a willing participant so it could potentially be excluded from any defense.

I would consult an divorce attorney to find out your rights if you decide to divorce and also consult with another attorney specializing in defending a lawsuit like this potential one. They can tell you what you can do now to protect assets from a future lawsuit.


I Divorced Her.

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guiltyone
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Default  Posted: 11:43 PM, August 26th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I kind of agree that the guy had it coming. This wasn't some stranger.

It was a family friend.

If it was a stranger, then it'd be a different story. He doesn't know you and doesn't owe anything to you. Yes, it would still be wrong but not warrant a beating. Who knows what the wife told the guy?

Most of the anger should be on the wife.


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velvethammer
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Default  Posted: 9:44 AM, August 28th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I totally feel your pain and understand where you're at right now. My WBF after 7+ years flew to Chicago to fuck his married cousin for 4 days telling me he was on a business trip. Just found out end of May/early June (I don't remember the exact date nor do I want to). Most of my thoughts revolve around knocking her teeth in so she chokes on them and setting his ass on fire. I have only 2-3 OK (not good but OK) days a month right now - the rest of the time I'm fucking pissed. I did find something yesterday on these forums that helped me and might help you as well. It was about acceptance - not accepting what they did but rather accepting that I can't change it. For my own sanity and well being I think I really need to work on accepting the fact that no amount of screaming is going to undo the atrocities they committed. I have no power there but I do have power in taking my life back and using this pain to learn and grow from it as opposed to allowing it to consume me. I hope this helps a little bit, even if it's only for a few hours or a day. Right now I cherish those days I'm not feeling the grizzly bear (that's what we call my rage monster).

PS - Kudos to your FIL. What kind of "friend" fucks his friend's married daughter? Total POS


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velvethammer
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Default  Posted: 9:59 AM, August 28th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I'd like to add that thankfully, the asshead cousin lives in another state that would take 20 hours to drive to so luckily I don't have the problem most have on the forums of possibly running into the trash but after I found out, WBF called her husband to apologize to him for effing his wife and disrespecting him and while she was screaming denials in the background, my WBF patiently answered whatever questions her husband had and continued to apologize and express regret and disgust. The bitch actually had the gall to email me after that phone call demanding to know why I'm trying to destroy her family. ME?!!! I just ignored it and blocked her email address. I don't associate with trash.

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Uhtred
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Default  Posted: 10:18 AM, August 29th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Kept My Word,

Your really brought up some extremely good points that I've never actually thought about. My wife has since mentioned that she felt good that I fought and whipped this guys ass. I questioned her statement and asked her how she could feel that way after what she has been doing with him. She shrugged her shoulders and said she didn't know why she felt that way but that she did.


Me: BH 32years old DDay 4-29-13
Her: WW 33 years old
“Yet each man kills the thing he loves
By each let this be heard
Some do it with a bitter look
Some with a flattering word
The coward does it with a kiss
The brave man with a sword”

Posts: 599 | Registered: Aug 2013 | From: Houston, Texas
Uhtred
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Default  Posted: 10:30 AM, August 29th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Velvet Hammer, that's a crazy story too that your Boyfriend was having relations with his cousin! I hope you exposed that to the whole family. I hate hear that that happened to you. The feelings of betrayal are some of the strongest I've ever felt. I do not accept this at this time. At some point I will have to in order to get over it. I'm just not ready to forgive or accept yet. I may never forgive her for this. I will eventually have to accept it though.


Me: BH 32years old DDay 4-29-13
Her: WW 33 years old
“Yet each man kills the thing he loves
By each let this be heard
Some do it with a bitter look
Some with a flattering word
The coward does it with a kiss
The brave man with a sword”

Posts: 599 | Registered: Aug 2013 | From: Houston, Texas
nuance
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Default  Posted: 11:03 PM, August 29th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Acceptance takes years and forgiveness may never happen. And this assuming a perfect and remorseful FWW.


Dday May 2000. R'ed.
People suck.

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velvethammer
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Default  Posted: 9:48 AM, August 30th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Uhtred - I called her husband right away. Later I emailed WBF brother and texted his father who cheated on his mother and left her for OW when she was dying of cancer. Nice family. WBF also called cousin's husband to apologize and answer any questions he had. I told him he's lucky we live in another state because if her husband came over to kick his ass, I wasn't going to stop him.

I so feel for your pain. It's been 3 months since dday and I just got another trickle truth yesterday which took me right back to dday all over again. Is he fucking stupid or is he just hurting me on purpose? Either way he's making it easier for me to detach from him and make a final decision to kick him out.

Has your WW come clean on everything? Is she at least treating you like gold and doing everything to prove she wants to be with you?


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Uhtred
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My wife has come clean finally. In the first week she came clean with her affair. I still knew something else was being hidden and I haven't mentioned it here until now. She was also sexting with some asshole she went to school with.

Again she craved attention and validation from this. I have enabled her to have the time to do this sort of crap by not insisting that she get a job. My 3 year old will not be attending the mothers day out program he went to last year. The free days she had gave her the time to meet with her AP and also carry on her crap online.

I contacted the man's wife on FB and let her know what was going on. Seeing my track record it was a good thing I didn't know where he lived because I became enraged when I found out the additional information. The OM's wife literally had a melt down when she sent me her number for me to call so we could talk about what our spouses where up to.

To answer your question, yes my wife is treating me like gold and trying to show me her remorse. Now that full exposure has happened she claims it was like a weight lifted off of her shoulders. It came right off of her shoulders and added an additional burden to me. At least everything is out in the open now. At least I think everything has been let out of the bag. My wife is not a good liar and I can read her like a book. That's why I knew something else was being hidden.


Me: BH 32years old DDay 4-29-13
Her: WW 33 years old
“Yet each man kills the thing he loves
By each let this be heard
Some do it with a bitter look
Some with a flattering word
The coward does it with a kiss
The brave man with a sword”

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Default  Posted: 5:07 PM, August 30th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

she claims it was like a weight lifted off of her shoulders

I got the same line. "phwee, weight is off my shoulders - by the way here's your live grenade dear".


Dday May 2000. R'ed.
People suck.

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velvethammer
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Default  Posted: 7:03 PM, August 31st (Saturday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Uhtred

Yep, isn't it nice for them that they feel relief after blowing up our worlds?

Mine did something similar. I found a pu$$y pic in his email and confronted him thinking it was his cousin (I didn't know if my suspicions were right yet but I suspected). He tells me it's some other girl he went to school with in 9th grade on the other side of the US. So he protects the affair with his cousin by revealing a sexting affair for a year.

Later I found other chic's pu$$y pics and lets just say they didnt match.

Good for you for telling the OM's wife. Did you tell her about this site too?


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Uhtred
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I haven't been in contact with the other dick's wife in the last 2 months. We were talking pretty regular for a while. Since I did a full exposure in the way that I did our MC said I wasn't helping myself by talking to her since it always turned into bad mouthing the two of them. That made sense and I haven't spoken to her. I guess I was the one initiating the talks. Maybe she'll find her way here on her own. If she does and reads my story she'll know exactly who Uhtred is.


Me: BH 32years old DDay 4-29-13
Her: WW 33 years old
“Yet each man kills the thing he loves
By each let this be heard
Some do it with a bitter look
Some with a flattering word
The coward does it with a kiss
The brave man with a sword”

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Uhtred: I read your post just now and totally understand where you are coming from. What your wife did, what your FIL friend did was WRONG in every way!!! I believe that you understand what you did to him physically was illegal. Was it wrong?? No to me it was illegal. Now that I've said that... I saw naked pictures of MOW, videos recorded by my H cell. Of her getting off and his hand up her cooch. I witnessed him in her car with her. I did not need to go up to her car window to see what was going on. I beeped my horn and his head popped up and his face turned pale. I read graphic emails and texts. I KNOW and fully understand the betrayal, anger and rage that you felt. You were lucky that he didn't press charges. The only reason why I didn't do worse than what you did is because I would be in jail right now. You have to prepare yourself for the possibility that they might break contact somehow. You need to look at your two precious babies sleeping at night and know the reason why you WONT ever do something like that again. You should consider IC. The fact that you lost your finger due to this fight will be a reminder every time you look at it.
I don't have a physical reminder but there isn't a F-ing day that I don't think about it!
I think your FIL's friend will never forget this as well! Hopefully this ishis wake up call ! As for me MOW is a serial cheater and I told her she would NEVER forget me. I outed her immediately. If I found anything I immediately contacted her H.

I'm so sorry this happened to you and your family. It forever changes things. Your wife has a shitload of work to do. Not just apologize everyday, cry .... Actions, not words.


ME-44
WH-45
Married 24


2Beautiful daughters
DD 6/26/10 (he broke down & confessed)
DD#2 3/14/11 H in OW's car
TT 7/1/11 (NC broken, through emails)

In R


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Default  Posted: 8:04 AM, September 2nd (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Uhtred

I want to start off by saying I DO NOT ADVOCATE violence......

Now with that being said, I don't think there is a betrayed spouse on SI both BW & BH that has not played out some scenario in their "minds-eye" of doing to their spouse's AP what you actually acted on and did to your wife's AP or some other scenario with that same theme.

Im my case, my "Dream" was after beating him, to carve the letter "A" on his bald forehead, so each day he shaved he would be reminded in the mirror of the disrespect he had not only for me and my family, but for his wife and his own family.

I also believe that each one of us has the propensity to "lose it" at some time....if some button gets pushed..I believe each of us has a "Trigger" where we will just lose it...

...and i also believe that we dont know what that button or Trigger actually is...until we are confronted with that catastrophic event.

Thats why the rule of law allows for "Temporay Insanity"

Again , i am not advocating violence, but do agree that until you walk in the other mans shoes as Uhtred stated, you dont know the true feeling of what they went through.

Crushing her wedding ring, that's classic!!!!!

I had all the family pictures off the walls and had taken them into the garage and had a can of black spray paint and was about to spray a large "X" over her face in each picture before composure took over and I put them all back on the walls. I did tell her one day what almost happened and i got that "Deer in head-light" look.

Me: BS 59
Her: WW 57
Maried 25 yrs
LTA- (PA & EA) 7 yrs maybe 10? former boss
1 Daughter-24 - former eating disorder transitioned into OCB (obsessive compulsive behavior)
D-day- Early March 2012
confrontation day-late April 2012
TT,l lies, blame shifting gas-ighting you name it she did it
True No contact July 2012 -initiated by WW
I called AP's wife and outed the "A"
In "R" and its been a rocky road


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