Having a tough week and need your opinions.
I have been assuming that false R comes from the WS who is not entirely committed to R.
But this week I have been SO angry. Depressed and hurt and angry, and feeling way back to square one, but without the HB that made that part kind of bearable. My WS senses it and has asked me to be honest about my feelings, but I don't even want to share them with him. I told him how proud I was of his work so far, and he said that "being proud of" is not the same as loving, and he's concerned I don't love him anymore. And I wonder if he's right.
I came to a point a month or so ago when I was no longer afraid to be divorced, which was really good. But I am aware of the problems of divorce, and how hard that will be on our kids. I don't take it lightly. I have committed to not making any big decisions until the 6 month mark (mid-October).
So what if I'm doing false R? What if I'm trying too hard to make this work and in fact I'm just done, and not allowing myself to see that hard truth?
He is doing all the right things. Why would I not want to R?
Anyone else in the BS position wonder if THEY were the ones doing false R? If so, how did you figure out what your truth was?