I once again am thinking about the possibilities of leaving, having a new life. But in July I wanted nothing but him and our family. Is it just the month??? I hope this doesn't continue on much longer I hate feeling like this!!! I don't want to feel so much disgust and resentment towards my wh!!! I know even without this one big month long trigger we would have a long road ahead to actually fully R, but we were at least on that road together. I fear this derailing everything we have achieved. And I can see him stepping back also. Its like when my walls go up his walls go up too. I know we need counseling both ic and MC, but financially we can't do it right now, hopefully i'm the next couple of months we'll have the money to do it. I just feel like for now i'm just hanging on by a thread. We had been planning on celebrating our 10 year wedding anniversary this year. But now I am not so excited about it. I know the couple of days away from here, no kids, no one else will be nice. But the actual celebrating of our marriage kinda feels like a sham!!!
It makes me think though will this month be this difficult every year??? And for how long??? Its been 3 years already, although only a few months since the newest TT.
although only a few months since the newest TT.
That's the key right there. TT tends to reset the clock
Time does help
Never be afraid of the truth