I once again am thinking about the possibilities of leaving, having a new life. But in July I wanted nothing but him and our family. Is it just the month??? I hope this doesn't continue on much longer I hate feeling like this!!! I don't want to feel so much disgust and resentment towards my wh!!! I know even without this one big month long trigger we would have a long road ahead to actually fully R, but we were at least on that road together. I fear this derailing everything we have achieved. And I can see him stepping back also. Its like when my walls go up his walls go up too. I know we need counseling both ic and MC, but financially we can't do it right now, hopefully i'm the next couple of months we'll have the money to do it. I just feel like for now i'm just hanging on by a thread. We had been planning on celebrating our 10 year wedding anniversary this year. But now I am not so excited about it. I know the couple of days away from here, no kids, no one else will be nice. But the actual celebrating of our marriage kinda feels like a sham!!!
It makes me think though will this month be this difficult every year??? And for how long??? Its been 3 years already, although only a few months since the newest TT.
although only a few months since the newest TT.
That's the key right there. TT tends to reset the clock
Time does help
The people you do your life with shape the life you live