So far this week I have been "accepting" the situation. Not okay with it of course, but "accepting" that it is what it is and I can't change it- I didn't choose it- but now I am stuck with it.
I am letting go of some of the anger waiting for some validation from MR. Integrity. I know it ain't never gonna happen... or if it does it will be too little, too late.
Now, I am trying to focus on the "what do I do now." There are logistical things that need to be figured out. Parenting things. Financial things. All so hard when there is ZERO trust and ZERO communication except some business like emails every few days.
All my feelings of safety and security are gone. It is hard to not know if he is going to close out the joint credit card any minute, or stop paying the mortgage. Or decide to just go and pick the kids up from school and not tell me. Or introduce skank OW to our kids.
I can accept the situation but it sure does feel shitty...