Topic: WH Committed Suicide
Member # 35812
| Posted: 6:55 PM, September 3rd (Tuesday), 2013|
I am so very sorry. (((hugs))) All of your family will be in my prayers.
Imagine a ship trying to set sail while towing an anchor. Cutting free is not a gift to the anchor. You must release that burden, not because the anchor is worthy, but because the ship is.
D-Day, June 10, 2012
Posts: 2933 | Registered: Jun 2012 | From: So California
Member # 15902
| Posted: 7:03 PM, September 3rd (Tuesday), 2013|
I am so sorry.
Me: BH, Her: FWW - Long Term EA/PA
d-day: June 25, 2007
Married 29 years, Happily Reconciled
The moment you get angry while arguing with someone, is the instant you stop striving for the truth and start trying to prove yourself superior.
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Member # 40265
| Posted: 7:07 PM, September 3rd (Tuesday), 2013|
Thanks everyone. I am just putting one foot in front of the other. His family is blaming me and want to take his remains back across the country to be buried. He did not want that but my family is great and will protect me and my kids from any negativity they may bring with them.
DS started counselling today with the school guidance counsellor. Our school distract has a psychologist on staff so we did the paper work for that. His school is great and they are committed to making sure he gets all the help he needs.
I am bringing DD to school tomorrow to see her counsellor and I am assuming that she will also be signed up with the psychologist. Her school contacted me today to offer any support we may need and to ask to be updated on the funeral plans as some of the teachers want to be there. DS school asked for the same thing. I have great kids that leave an impact on people's lives and now they will see just how many people love them.
I will be speaking to my counsellor tomorrow. She was off today but sent me an email that she will call me first thing in the morning and we will get an appointment set up right away.
I have a huge support system of family and friends. I am a doula and my doula friends are having a fundraiser for us. I don't know what I am feeling, I cycle through every emotion hourly. My kids are keeping me sane! It's really difficult because since D day I have been focusing on all of the bad things that happened during our marriage so that if he came back I would be strong enough to say no. Now I am just thinking about the good times and reminding myself that he had depression and unfortunately he wasn't able to fight back this time. I don't think he planned it for very long, I think it was a pretty rash decision. I think he may have had a moment where he realized what he had done to me and our family. I am trying to convince myself that he didn't even consider the fact that DS would find him but I don't know if I will ever believe it.
Thanks again for all of the support, it really helps to get on here and see that people who don't even know me or my kids are thinking about us.
BW (me) 35
WH 35 (deceased)
DS 15 DD 7
Together 12.5 years Married 8.5 years
D Day July 22, 2013
WH committed suicide :(
Posts: 12 | Registered: Aug 2013 | From: Alberta, Canada
Member # 31868
| Posted: 7:55 PM, September 3rd (Tuesday), 2013|
My sincere condolences to you and your children.
Posts: 107 | Registered: Apr 2011 | From: Pacific
Member # 36041
| Posted: 8:28 PM, September 3rd (Tuesday), 2013|
My late STBX did this exact thing. He hung himself in the garage last September 7. Our mediation was over and we had agreed on everything and it was time to transfer the money and end it. I had been out of the house for almost a year.
Even though I did not love him it was very difficult and since we were still legally married I had to take care of everything. That time seems so surreal to me now.
Get counseling and DO NOT TAKE GUILT ON YOURSELF. People who take their lives are mentally ill. There is nothing you could have done to stop it. So sorry for your child who found him.
Hugs and I will say a prayer for you.
White bird must fly or she will die . . .
Posts: 268 | Registered: Jul 2012 | From: in divorce land
Member # 40302
| Posted: 7:03 AM, September 4th (Wednesday), 2013|
i'm so sorry!! and esp for your son!!! I know that's terrible. When I was 16, my best friend found her mom hanging in the kitchen. Two years later, she ran a marathon for charity, went to Harvard, and became a lawyer. Your kids will get through this. It might be the end of their father's life, but it won't be the end of theirs. I lost my dad when I was 6, and even though I still miss him everyday, I've moved forward, too. I went to medical school, I worked hard, and even traveled the world. Your daughter will need a lot of guidance during those teen years, because they're definitely hard. It's very hard for a girl who wants male approval and doesn't have a father. She's going to need the help of you and big brother a lot! You guys will get through this, though. It's terrible, and shocking, but it's not your fault. He did leave you to clean up one giant mess, though. How irresponsible to leave himself hanging for his son to find. He should have been a better man and a better father. But, something that may help you guys heal: A man or woman who commits suicide is most likely Borderline PD. It sounds like with his risky sexual behavior (the A) that he probably has this disease. Do some research, learn about it, and feel better because nothing you did, or could have done, or will do can change BPD. good luck. The diagnosis helped me deal with healing from my husband's A because I realized that it really was just him. Hugs.
Everyone else's borderline personality disorder wrecks my life.
My knight in shining armor turned out to be nothing more than a little boy playing dress-up.
BS 26, WS 29. D after D-Day#2, False R, M, and a lot of regret. Hate that douche.
Posts: 59 | Registered: Aug 2013 | From: Hell
Member # 27196
| Posted: 7:14 AM, September 4th (Wednesday), 2013|
I just saw this. Dear God, I am so so sorry. What a horrific nightmare, and now to have your in-laws blaming you...I just can't imagine.
Stay strong sweetie.
((((DOML and children))))
me BS female 55/him WS 58
Married 33 years
D-day July 09/he gave me his slut's STD
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Posts: 6588 | Registered: Jan 2010 | From: Coastal South
Member # 28997
| Posted: 7:31 AM, September 4th (Wednesday), 2013|
((((DOML and children))))
I am so sorry for you and your family.
Sending you prayers
Married 30yrs Me BW 57Yrs Him FWH 59yrs
OWzero 1988 EA?/PA? Gaslighted. Believed him.
Dday May 28 2010. Found out all in 3 weeks:
OW1 1994(6mths PA, EA until dday).
OW2 2002(8yrs PA).
OW3 2009(1Yr PA).
Others???? Status: Not Divorcing...
Posts: 2605 | Registered: Jul 2010 | From: Australia
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Member # 40321
| Posted: 7:38 AM, September 4th (Wednesday), 2013|
Praying for you and your children at his difficult time. God bless you with strength and courage to face the coming days and weeks with dignity and grace.
BS(me)48; WH 49
High School Sweethearts
Together 32 years
Married 25 years
DD, 20 years
Posts: 22 | Registered: Aug 2013 | From: United States
Member # 38660
| Posted: 7:39 AM, September 4th (Wednesday), 2013|
I am so very sorry for your loss...add my prayers to those for you and your dear children. Many hugs...
"Never, never, never give up." - Winston Churchill
Posts: 138 | Registered: Mar 2013 | From: Pennsylvania
Member # 34678
| Posted: 8:15 AM, September 4th (Wednesday), 2013|
You might be right about this being a rash decision. When it was only 2 months out from Dday, my XWH was very chaotic. He threatened to wrap his truck around a tree, said we would be better off if he were gone, laying scratches down the driveway, telling me he was saving a place in hell for me, and on and on. So unlike him.
I am sorry....
me BS 52
him - 46
married 15 years DIVORCED 10 31 12
children - ds15 ds12
I gave a 24hour ultimatum then went to attorney next day
Posts: 1428 | Registered: Jan 2012
Member # 36726
| Posted: 8:22 AM, September 4th (Wednesday), 2013|
I have no words for this other than I am sorry for you and your kids and the families. You have a lot of support here and we are all here to listen and provide it. Our hearts and prayers go out to you and your kids. A terrible thing for kids to deal with. You are doing great.
BH me 45
WW her 37
2 kids (11, 7)
Filed for D 9/14/12
Posts: 391 | Registered: Sep 2012 | From: PA
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| Posted: 9:16 AM, September 4th (Wednesday), 2013|
So sad...so tragic...for everyone. Great that you and your children have such an amazing support system. So much blame gets thrown around after events like this. Hope you stay focused and strong when you can so that your family/friends/community can heal. I'm so sorry.
Posts: 4 | Registered: Sep 2013 | From: CT
Member # 21101
| Posted: 11:07 AM, September 4th (Wednesday), 2013|
Oh my heart aches for you.
What a horrible, selfish thing to do to your children.
Please make sure your son knows that his dad was unwell, and that he took a path that is never a good choice. Please let your kids know they are wonderful people, and you are stong and there for them, every day.
Keep posting, my heart and prayers go out to you that you may find some peace.
Kids: 14 & 16
Married for 21 years now, was 16 at the time. .
D-Day Sept 26 2008
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Posts: 5072 | Registered: Oct 2008 | From: St. Louis
Member # 33539
| Posted: 11:24 AM, September 4th (Wednesday), 2013|
My prayers are with you and your family. I'm glad that your son is in counseling, he will need it after this.
His family blaming you is really no excuse--it was WH's decision and his alone. Hopefully in time they will see that.
Posts: 495 | Registered: Oct 2011 | From: New York
Member # 30826
| Posted: 11:50 AM, September 4th (Wednesday), 2013|
Im so very sorry for your loss, and the pain you and the kids are going through.
M: June 2001
Status: Currently in R..very happy with this *new* husband!
..that feeling you get in your stomach, when you heart's broken. It's like all the butterflies just died.
Posts: 6099 | Registered: Jan 2011 | From: Indiana
Member # 31765
| Posted: 11:56 AM, September 4th (Wednesday), 2013|
Sending my heartfelt prayers for you and your children and family.
So very, very sorry...
Posts: 565 | Registered: Apr 2011
Member # 35640
| Posted: 1:02 PM, September 4th (Wednesday), 2013|
Oh my goodness, how terribly awful for you and your kids. Please don't let his family make you feel guilty. Just like the affair, he chose to do this. Not that either thing was a good decision but you are not to blame!
Thinking of you and your children during this difficult time. (((DOML)))
Me: BS 40
Him: WS 38
Married 10 yrs, together 13
DS-7, DD-4, DS- 1
D-Day 5/9/12, 2 days before #3 was born
Filed for D 8/12; D final 4/13
Posts: 187 | Registered: May 2012
Member # 36599
| Posted: 7:22 PM, September 4th (Wednesday), 2013|
I'm so sorry for you and your children.
2 Ddays and lots of TT
Scars remind us where we've been. They don't have to dictate where we're going. (Criminal Minds)
I saw him, I could not unsee him. -StrongButBroken
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Member # 35875
| Posted: 9:46 PM, September 4th (Wednesday), 2013|
I am so sorry for all of you. You sound so strong and you and your dear children will get through this. My prayers are with you all.
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