Why the heck would I want to do that you might ask?
Well, Sunday was a day that I went through my father's things - to look for a document my uncle had asked me to look for. My mom said "don't do it" and tell him you couldn't find it. I said no, I will be fine.
But of course moms are usually right.
I cried for a good part of the day. Anyway, in the process I found my wedding tape that my Dad had a copy of. I had been looking for tapes that would have my father in them and here was one right in my hands....
I debated on whether or not watch it and decided to go for it. I did get to see my father and hear a little bit of his voice, not much though and that was disappointing.
What I noticed was that I cried more at seeing my father and had very few feelings of seeing my ex-h. Yes, I was in awe of how young I looked and how it was the promise a "new chapter" in my life. I saw how secure I looked and remember how it felt. I saw how skinny I once was.
I hadn't watched that tape since 1995 - the year I got married.Me: 41
Two boys: 16 and 13
Laughter will cure life's ills. Have you had your laugh today?