But my shit, and how I deal with it and come through it, is the only control I really have I guess.
This is more true than you know and it has more power than you know right now.
Take this one day at a time. You don't have to fix this in a day, or a week, or a month. This is a marathon, not a sprint.
And, yes, being a madhatter can be hard to navigate. Try not to compare your affair vs my affair.
Good luck. Hugs, I know first days are hard.