Old Cow, thank you for starting this thread!
Wow Pain Pain Go Away...Had you not been treated when you were for your hyperthyroidism, you might have found yourself admitted to your hospital's ICU for the life threatening emergency of thyroid storm.. Also Trust Gone and all who posted their stories in this thread, Wow ! What you guys went through is horrible!
This infidelity trauma and knowing our WH's could care less is literally a killer!
Add me to the list of people who broke down physically and emotionally in some way..
I still want to take my doggies with me and drive off somewhere in any direction, disappear and start a new life..
I used to be slender and very athletic, into bicycling..
I am now 25-30 pounds overweight and feel self conscious about meeting new people because of my negative body image and shitty self esteem..I have so many cute clothes in my closet that are 10-to 15 pounds away from being big enough to fit well..
I feel like I am in a severe depression...
I rarely want to get out of the house unless I have an appt/obligation or a friend asks me to meet up to hang out..
I think the best thing I can do for myself is to be more proactive about widening my social circle of caring people....
During our M, WH and I didn't have much of a social life together...I worked long hours and most holidays.
I wasn't crazy about the type of people WH chose for friends and he thought that I was picky and crazy for not liking most of the people he chose as friends..His friends were disrespectful of women to varying degrees..
I should have seen WH's choice of people to hang out with as a red flag showing me the person he really was inside..
I do need to reach out and send people invitations to meet up with me lol,friends motivate me to get out of the house and move more.. This may help me as much as any anti anxiety or antidepressant med because I won't feel so isolated..