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User Topic: Words vs Action Question
1bigidiot79
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Default  Posted: 8:24 AM, September 5th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I'm new here and just beginning my process of trying to atone for my mistakes with my BS. I keep reading statements like words are one thing but let him show some action. My question is what exactly would a BS be looking for? Here is what I have and am currently doing: (I didn't have a PA, I was viewing pornography and lied about it)

-Put filters on all computers and devices
-Came completely clean, told her everything
-Read the book how to heal after an affair and am trying to follow it religously
-profusely apologized repeatedly
-will begin IC shortly and have told her so. Tried to get her to go to MC
-Written her letters to assure her that I am committed to R
-Told her she can look at anything I have, being completely transparent
-Checking on her every day and continually reassuring her of my love for her

Obviously I want to do anything and everything I can to make this better for her. Is there anything that I'm not doing that I could be doing, something I've missed?


DDay 7/23/13
TT on 3/5/14 - Finally came completely clean
Finally working on making real changes in my life, one day at a time.

Posts: 146 | Registered: Sep 2013 | From: United States
atsenaotie
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Member # 27650
Default  Posted: 9:19 AM, September 5th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

1bigidot,

You really should ask your BS what she is looking for, as it varies from person to person.

As for atonement, I see the items you listed as good steps to help your BS feel safe staying with you while you work out your issues, but I do not see them as atonement.

I suspect that your BS feels that your use of pornography stole time from her and the M. Have you sacrificed time for any of your things to take some load off of her? Doing more household chores than normal? Cutting back on spending for your hobbies and activities to provide additional money for her to use for fun? What is her love language, and what are you doing consistently to speak that language? Have you voluntarily moved from a smartphone to a text only phone? Are you working on yourself physically (exercise, diet, reduce smoking or drinking, updated wardrobe) to be more attractive to your BS? Do you notice a specific thing each day to complement your BS on, and let her know that she is important to you?
Do you complement her in front of your family and friends and tell them how fortunate you are that she is your W?

So there are some suggestions. My FWW has been good at the not having anymore A part, and bad at the atoning for her A and stepping up as a spouse. I can tell you that just not having an A anymore is not enough. It is a start, but not a M.

[This message edited by atsenaotie at 9:19 AM, September 5th (Thursday)]


LTA BS 53
M 1990, dday 10-5-09
Separated and Divorcing

Posts: 4077 | Registered: Feb 2010 | From: FL
confused615
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Member # 30826
Default  Posted: 10:28 AM, September 5th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I agree...you need to ask your BW.

One word of advice..stop calling what you did a "mistake." It was not a mistake. You made a conscious choice,over and over again,to do what you did. Calling it a "mistake" sort of minimizes the actions. Own it.


BS(me)41
FWH 45
4 kids..21,20,11,9
M: June 2001
D-Day: 8/10/10
Status: Happily Reconciled.

..that feeling you get in your stomach, when you heart's broken. It's like all the butterflies just died.


Posts: 7116 | Registered: Jan 2011 | From: Indiana
PamJ
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Default  Posted: 11:11 AM, September 5th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

What you are doing sounds right, but 'actions' are sometimes NON actions- like NOT doing what you were doing before, so , if she checks every day and you did NOT look at porn or hide anything, THAT will be an action she can notice . After she does this for a while, and it will be a LONG while, THEN she will start to trust you again. Start.


Me: BS 50+
Him: WH 60

3 EAs

2 grown sons, 1 grown step-son

Last DDay, March 19, 2013 after a few weeks of TT- trying to have a new marriage after almost 35 years.
No more chances.


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