Wow, your post really stirred feelings in me. There is no doubt it is the worst pain emotionally and physically.
I had two DDays almost a month apart. 07/21/13 and 08/15/13. Second phone discovered on the second DDay. From the first to the second, all lies. Even though my WW says she meant all the I'm sorries. No she didn't. I'm sure you feel the same as I do. Ten years of trusting, feeling secure, in love, to find out the person that made you feel that way presented it falsely.
I'm sure your WS would say otherwise, but, how can it be? I feel so bad for you. Know that there are so many here that care and support you.
I can honestly say I know that pain, as can many others. It scares me to think it could happen again and that deep emotional pain could return. It was and still is devastating. Nothing like it.
No matter what, it just takes time to feel better. Know that it will somewhat subside in the coming weeks. Make it about you feeling better, no matter what it takes! I just tried one day at a time, hour by hour and minute by minute.
Go to your doctor for help. It helped me with sleep and depression. I'm pretty new at this and still struggle, but will make it and so will you.
DDay#2-08/15/13 second phone!
Trying to make it