I look back at the past year and don't understand how we went on vacations, events and made such great happy memories because we were in a good place. Although I was closer to disclosure back then, I seemed to have had a better attitude and was moving forward and falling back in love with my H.
Today I'm acting like it was just weeks ago, and I can't even think of muttering the words, "I love you". Nothing has changed that much to make me feel this way. H is still remorseful and trying to help me heal. So why am I getting worse, not better?
I feel like there is something wrong with me!
As long as your FWS is doing all that he can, you are talking, working together, then it will get better. Don't be afraid to tell him you are having a bad time and try and explain why.
Hopefully you have been reading the healing library articles and have some good books to help you get through some of the rough times. Hugs. Hang in there. It DOES get better.
More than anything I just wonder how I can feel worse now than I did even in the first six months. Why was it easier then?
At what point are you hanging on to the anger because it feels safe?
[This message edited by SmallButStrong at 3:06 PM, September 9th (Monday)]