I feel good. I feel peace. I feel in control of my life again. I feel the best I've felt in 3 months. I never expected this in a million years after the hell of the last 3 months. I know my feelings could change at any time, but for now I am just amazed at myself. Anyone else go through this?
Don't get me wrong, gun to my head what I want is my marriage and family back, but he needs to change and do the work in order for that to happen and I can't count on that anymore. I just feel so in control again. Amazing. I hope it lasts.
Plan on still having the ups and downs of the emotional rollercoaster as that is almost inevitable, but time makes it easier.
This above all: to thine own self be true, and it must follow, as the night the day, thou canst not then be false to any man ~ Shakespeare, Hamlet
Our D is scheduled for next Wednesday. I'm sure I'll be floating on a cloud.
And, ditto to "he needs to change and do the work in order for that to happen and I can't count on that anymore". When WH showed me he wouldn't or couldn't do the work, that was his message to me loud and clear. Oh, and I gave him 3 years to do it in.