Why was I so disposable? Now he wants his wife back, the same one he tossed. I no longer exist.
The opposite of love is not hate ... It is indifference.
seems I'm on the 15 year plan
If you want him back, he can either accept the new you, or not.
Have you told him exactly how you feel? That the old you is not there, you have changed, and your changes have come as a result of his actions?