I saw the good, the bad and the ugly in this short time with him and yes I know, I dodged a bullet. There were many red flags literally hitting me in the face.
I also know that while things were good, they were crazy good. During those times I felt like I could let myself fall. I will never forget the night he held me when I broke down over not being with my DD on her 16th birthday. There are many moments that were beautiful and as close to perfect as I ever came with a man and that makes me believe that I can truly love somebody again in the future.
I have been hit on and asked out on dates the last few weeks since xSO and I broke up. It is almost as if guys feel I am not emotionally available and make it a conquest. I tried against my better judgment but I can't get myself to even get excited about anybody.
So, I will take a leave of absence so to say and focus on my DDs. I like my regained solitude