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User Topic: sordid vs boring
broken313
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Sad  Posted: 4:16 PM, September 18th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I'm having a lot of trouble processing the depths of sordidness to which my WH sank during his A.
They were at it EVERYWHERE. Motels, cars, back of buildings, her marital bed etc. With each time they took more risks. Can someone please help me understand how they see these acts in a positive light with the AP during the A? He wouldn't in a million years have suggested we had sex in these places. How can someone behave so out of character? After 21 years of being together and me being BORING in comparison I am freaking out that I have held him back. Is it ME thats the problem?


Me 42
FWH 39
3 kids, 13,8,6
Dday 3/30/13
R- fragile

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Lonelygirl10
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Default  Posted: 4:42 PM, September 18th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

No, it's not you. My WS always refused to go to bars with me because he wasn't the type of person to drink. He wouldn't go out with my friends because he was too shy. He freaked out when he thought his roommates might find a pink wig I brought over to his house, because he didn't want them to think I was slutty. He told me over and over that he could only date innocent girls.

But, the OW was someone who took off her clothes at bars. Seriously. She did this in front of him. She was, in his words, "the life of the party and the center of the room." He spent a lot of time with her friends. His excuse for the A is that he wanted to party and drink. He liked her because she was wild.

I spent some time wondering if I held him back, but I've realized that it wasn't me. He was either faking to me about what he wanted, or he just became a completely different person during that time period. Not sure which one.


30 Bgf
Dday: April 2013
Relationship ended: January 2014

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emotionalgirl
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Default  Posted: 8:29 PM, September 18th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I think you have to look on it from the point of view that they were in the fantasy part of a new relationship. Where everything is exciting and all rainbows and unicorns. They can't wait to be together etc. Then think about what the two of you may have been like if your relationship was new again. Would he have been on you for sex anywhere and everywhere?

I remember 25 yrs ago my WH was up for it anytime anywhere, then real life, jobs, housework, etc. etc. etc. stepped in and he would rather sleep In front of the tv than have sex. The old been married forever rut!

We don't hold them back...WS could just up their game for us and we would likely have been right back into the anytime anywhere...instead they went looking elsewhere for excitement because upping their game would have been work and heaven forbid they put actual work into their marriage. Funny thing is after the A if they want to R they have to put double the amount of work and effort in to get anything back. It kinda backfires on them doesn't it?

[This message edited by emotionalgirl at 8:30 PM, September 18th (Wednesday)]


1st D day: Saturday July 20,2013
2nd D day....when the s**t really hit the fan and the truth came out.Saturday August 3,2013
3rd D day: Friday August 16, 2013...NC sent Friday Aug 30 4th D day NOV 11
Me: BS
Him: WH
Married 25 years....finally in R

Posts: 373 | Registered: Aug 2013
broken313
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Default  Posted: 3:47 AM, September 19th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Thank you for your responses. Fantasy to the point of risky behaviour? He could have been arrested, lost his job, been caught by OW husband, and given me an STI. No he wouldnt have done that with me, I wouldnt have been up for that. The cheap slut he hooked up with was up for anything and egged him on. He has said to me recently that he needs to be in a relationship and can see himself with someone else if it doesnt work out with us....think he felt young, cool and oh so clever.


Me 42
FWH 39
3 kids, 13,8,6
Dday 3/30/13
R- fragile

Posts: 72 | Registered: Apr 2013
SBB
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Default  Posted: 6:04 AM, September 19th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

The sad clown became beige gradually over time.

Never wanted to do anything fun or exciting either sexually or just in general. He was always intimidated by my raunchy past - I see now that he his sensitivity as a manipulation tool to keep me in check.

He blamed me for him becoming beige when in truth he did that all by himself.

I went numb - I never did go beige.

I'm not numb anymore that's for sure.

I think a lot of BS's struggle with this.

Having had all sorts of sordid relationships myself I have to say even they become boring. If you swing from the chandelliers every night you miss good old missionary IYKWIM?

If there is no emotional intimacy or if it has been severed then you do need something completely new (for me this happened a lot when dating casually, never in my M. I wanted a better sex life and intimacy with him, not with anyone else. The thought never actually occurred to me until DD).

Its not about the sex though - it is about how you are reflected in the eyes of this new person. They don't know the real you - they only see the parts you want them to see. When they start seeing the real you is when you need to switch out.

People don't cheat because there is something wrong with you - they cheat because there is something wrong with them.


I may have reached a point where I'd piss on him if he was on fire.... eventually!!

Posts: 5608 | Registered: Apr 2012 | From: Australia
Ostrich80
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Default  Posted: 10:46 AM, September 19th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

This very subject is one I've been pondering on lately. I don't know if my ws has always had a side to him that he kept hidden OR if this is something he and ow discovered. It's like he's got an entirely different person that comes out, away from me. I WAS the one that liked to initiate new things in the bedroom and sometimes he would make me feel like I was kind of freaky. Since ow came into the picture, he's into things that I never knew he was. I see the porn he looks at, its defin not something he ever was into before. I feel like he can be uninhibited around
her but not me. I don't get it. Seems like he's hiding from me what he likes now. It's too late to try and dive into his desires now, he's pretty much destroyed what we could have had. For some reason I don't know this man I've been with since I was a teen . He seems almost shy around me. I guess he's closer to her and I'm like a stranger.

[This message edited by Ostrich80 at 10:49 AM, September 19th (Thursday)]


BS..me
WS..him
Been with him over half my life
4kid
DD1 10-01-09 DD2 02-12-12 discovered it never ended
OW..nothing special. Just your average skank
Status..#$%@????

Posts: 5129 | Registered: Feb 2012 | From: midwest
SBB
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Default  Posted: 4:06 PM, September 19th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Madonna/Whore Complex?


I may have reached a point where I'd piss on him if he was on fire.... eventually!!

Posts: 5608 | Registered: Apr 2012 | From: Australia
Ostrich80
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Default  Posted: 2:59 AM, September 20th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Madonna/Whore Complex?

^^^^ exactly


BS..me
WS..him
Been with him over half my life
4kid
DD1 10-01-09 DD2 02-12-12 discovered it never ended
OW..nothing special. Just your average skank
Status..#$%@????

Posts: 5129 | Registered: Feb 2012 | From: midwest
sleepless34
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Default  Posted: 6:07 PM, September 20th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I have a similar situation. My regular, loving Mr. Nice guy husband got involved with some flaky whore he met in a sex chat room. She was in an open marriage, so he hung out with her and her weird husband, lots of sordid stuff and reckless behaviour. I know that there is A LOT more that I do NOT know. And that scares me.

In therapy, they said it is like an addiction. They become addicted to this type of behaviour and the person. It is exciting to see how much you can "get away with" and then you get all hopped up on endorphins from the lust, sex, excitement the NEW YOU. They can't get enough of that feeling. GROSS.

My STBX is completely bat shit crazy. Like he is in a cult now. He makes no sense. Believes it was a good idea to leave wife, family, everything for this messed up skank so he can acheive "more personal growth" and thinks she is his "soul mate."

The addiction thing makes some sense. He is like a totally different person and acting crazy, making no sense. Being so reckless, like some one on drugs.


Me BW- 40ish, awesome
Cheating scusband 40ish
2 kids, elementary school age
Bomb dropped Aug 4 out of nowhere...

Posts: 443 | Registered: Aug 2013 | From: Hell
Ostrich80
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Default  Posted: 6:48 PM, September 20th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

@sleepless, there's not a another husband involved as ow is D, but yes same kind of thing going on. I've given up, even if he stopped contact with her, I have no idea where's he been or what he's done. I don't think he can come back down to just being my monogamous husband again. I'm afraid devil woman has cast a spell on the perverted bastard.


BS..me
WS..him
Been with him over half my life
4kid
DD1 10-01-09 DD2 02-12-12 discovered it never ended
OW..nothing special. Just your average skank
Status..#$%@????

Posts: 5129 | Registered: Feb 2012 | From: midwest
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