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User Topic: Are some people just full of shit?
joeboo
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Default  Posted: 11:54 AM, September 22nd (Sunday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Thanks for all the feedback and perspective. As mentioned, my goal was not to belittle her in front of everyone it was just a knee-jerk reaction to the smoke and I was blinded by my own selfishness. This has been going on for years and at first it was a little ďcuteĒ. Although she didnít have alcoholic parents, they were a little self-consumed in their own social status and were not exactly proud of her. Out of several siblings, she was the least intellectual but probably the most outgoing and social. She was a victim of CSA and it perpetuated into a lifetime of promiscuous behavior. Frankly it didnít appear to be rooted in validation as much as sheer enjoyment but I doubt anyone will ever really know.

This thread was very important to me and I am very thankful for all the posts. One of the things that has really bothered me lately was confirmation that the nicer I am to her, the less desirable her behavior is to me. The inverse is that when my behavior is least desirable to me, the more desirable or tolerable her behavior is to me. I donít want to be her behavioral manager. I want to be her husband and I cannot emotionally engage with her being a bsíer because it is so convoluted with wayward behavior.

I see that she alters her behavior long enough for me to put my guard down and behave in a manner fitting to her then she just goes back to being her old self. You can see how it threw me off course as on the outside it appeared she was doing all the hard work. She was. But only long enough for me to think that, not because she had any desire to change her behavior (or at least be successful at it).

I see where this is going. We need to get back to MC and identify our needs with an arbitrator. I need to make sure she knows this is something that will require her desire and work to fix. I am not an IC and I donít need the stress of trying to manage her behavior. If she would want to quit lying and actually stopped lying while I put my guard down, I could live with that. I donít want the threat of D to be her motivator so I guess weíll see how she reacts to wanting to meet my needs. She has such great potential, but I need to let that go already. It is not easy.


[This message edited by joeboo at 11:56 AM, September 22nd (Sunday)]


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nowiknow23
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Default  Posted: 12:06 PM, September 22nd (Sunday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

You're right, joe. It isn't easy. I think MC is a great next step.


You can call me NIK

"Sometimes it takes a good fall to know where you really stand."
-Hayley Williams


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thenon-goddess
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Default  Posted: 12:44 PM, September 22nd (Sunday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Joe, I didn't read all of the responses but a few and here is, what I considered to be, the bottom line - she is a liar. Does it matter whether its because she's insecure, or because she wants to have something to talk about - who cares - she's a liar. My WH is a bullshitter too and he'll say anything in the moment and then turn around and totally contradict every opinion he had, because at the time he was just bull shitting. He is a grown man and its not my job to put up with a liar or help build him up so that he won't have to act like such a know it all. R is off the table for me because of traits just like that.


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Typing on an iPhone - please excuse the typos!

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