Hoping for Serenity, Courage, and Wisdom!!!!
Are you feeling the urge to leave and looking for ammunition?
My inclination would be to hear a little of what you want to know and see how it goes. You can't unlearn things, and while some say that mind movies get better the more you know, some say the exact opposite.
I edit, therefore I am.
I knew that my questions and concerns would never go away. Even now, 3yrs out, the only questions that pop up are ones that I never got answers to or never believed the answer.
Fortunately, I was relentless and willing to hear it all during those early days of discovery.
I think it is much like suppressing your emotions, it does not make it go away but often makes it worse. Get it out, work through it, and move forward.
You are right, knowing all of the details would make you feel bad but not knowing may keep you in a world of wonder.
The truth hurts, but I have never seen it cause the pain that lies do.
[This message edited by mchercheur at 10:25 PM, September 22nd (Sunday)]