Stay for your love, but if that is gone, it's no life in front of you. That's what the kids learn. That, and it's ok to hurt someone you are supposed to love.
I hope he's just in the fog, and needs a 2x4 on the side of his head, but if he's not, please move on, don't live a life of pain, as that is what would be ahead of you. And not the lesson children should learn by witness.
"It's hard to be in love when you can't tell lies!
His a with our neighbor was not intended as a way to leave me, it was used as a way for him to get that extra attention that he thought he so needed. However, that extra attention should have gone to me, not our neighbor.
So actually I chose to stay and R for reasons I still can't understand. Love, well maybe, family most definitely. It is what it is I guess.
[This message edited by TICKED OFF at 5:02 PM, September 30th (Monday)]
They had consummated their "lurve" for 4 days in July 2012 but broke up not too long after that because they "weren't compatible". He didn't tell me though.
After I told him I was done in October 2012, we started talking again. Started flirting. Started dating. We basically fell in love again. We were both cautious during the next few months. He didn't want to hurt me/kids again by coming home too soon - before he had his issues worked out in his own head. I was trying to protect me and the kids too. We had both changed and we spent time getting to know the new people we had become.
Then one night in January 2013 he showed up at the house with the flu. He stayed all weekend while I took care of him. As he started feeling better, we started really talking about Everything. By the end of that weekend, we didn't have any more doubts. We wanted to be together for US. Not for the kids, although they benefitted also.
It took a 10 month separation for him to finally grow up and really appreciate what he had all along. And I learned to stand up for myself - which I thought I was doing the previous 20 years. Turns out I was a trusting fool.
We reconciled because ultimately we belong together. We are a perfect fit for each other in every way. We still have bumps in the road occassionally. But we work them out together. We prioritize our marriage as #1 now, even above the kids.
I KNOW deep in my soul that he loves me and I love him. That's why we are together...
Later I chose R because my husband showed enough remorse and enough glimpses of the good person I had always believed he was to give our marriage a chance. He also committed to NC, which was a big deal for me. That didn't come immediately after D-Day, but when it did, I knew I that R was a possibility.
The other reason I chose R was that I didn't want to give up on the marriage for me, for him, or for our kids if I thought there was any chance. If I'd moved to D right away, I would have always wondered "what if I'd given it a chance? Would we have made it?" Fortunately H seems to be stepping up. Are we breezing down the road of R with no bumps? No. But do I feel optimistic for us (and for my own future happiness)? Yes!