She was weak, broken, pathetic trash... and he still left me for her.
Please, please don't stress over this. One of the SI sages (I wish I could remember who) said, "They cling to their bad choices out of desperation." Many waywards have to stay with their AP because if they don't, it proves that they were wrong, and they just can't admit this.
I'm trying so hard to focus on him, and this being HIS issue and really not having that much to do with OW. The only problem with the "broken attracts broken" philosophy is that it seriously makes me question my own soundness as a person. Because I attracted (and was attracted to) this horrible, pathetic, broken man... and I was not his first betrayal. I've learned that he's been unfaithful in EVERY relationship he's had, including the mother of his 5 kids. What a dirtbag. And I bought into his act hook, line and sinker... couldn't believe I'd fallen in love with such an amazing man.
What an idiot.
What a sucker.
And what a broken, fucked up mess *I* must be for him to pick ME out, as the best target, the weakest of the herd, as mentioned in the OP.
It really makes you question your own sanity and self-worth.
[This message edited by gypsybird87 at 10:29 PM, September 28th (Saturday)]
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