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hurtandlost31
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Default  Posted: 12:40 PM, October 3rd (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

My wife just confessed on Friday about a one night stand she had back in January with a man from out of town during a trip. We have been together for 7 years and just got married this summer. We also have two beautifull little girls. I am confused, hurt, and just feel bad all around. She said that she could not keep it from me anymore and that it was killing her that she could do something like that to her family. She takes full responsibility and said it was the biggest mistake of her life. She is begging to for us to stay together, but I don't know what to do. I'm still very in love and I know that she does really love me too. I want to hug her and kiss her, but I feel sick to my stomach. She has promised to show me how much she loves me if I give her a chance and says that she will work as long as she has to, to regain my trust. Our relationship is very transperant due to the fact that we work together. We have never had any big issues until Friday and now my world has crumbled! Please help I'm hurting.

[This message edited by hurtandlost31 at 2:10 PM, October 3rd (Thursday)]


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ShatteredLove00
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Default  Posted: 1:16 PM, October 3rd (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I am so, so, sorry. It's so hard. I'm one month out from finding out about my husband of 8 years had a one night stand on a business trip. I still cry every single day, multiple times a day. Please see a therapist or marriage counselor. We waited three weeks, and I feel like that was a lifetime. Talking to a third party has been so helpful in how to manage my pain, but honestly, it hurts so, so much, for so long. Every time I feel just a little happiness or affection, I remember that my world collapsed a month ago. I don't know how my recovery or reconciliation will go, and it's different for everyone. I'm so sorry for you.

[This message edited by ShatteredLove00 at 1:42 PM, October 3rd (Thursday)]


Me: BS (29) Him: SAWH (30)
HS Sweethearts, WAS each other's 1st/onlys. 1 child & 8 months pregnant when he hired prostitute/confessed.
D-Day: September 1, 2013
Shocked, disgusted, and struggling.

Posts: 34 | Registered: Sep 2013 | From: United States
ontheslope
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Default  Posted: 1:37 PM, October 3rd (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Sending well wishes your way, hurtandlost31.

You are still about as early in the process as one can be, and unfortunately there is not much in the way of magic cure-alls for the pain that you will be feeling.

My advice - don't hold anything in, don't bury anything, don't ignore how you feel. I made the mistake four years ago of learning about the A, and then burying my feelings about it so deep that they nearly ate me alive. DON'T make my mistake. Allow yourself to feel. Yell, scream, cry... express your feelings.

Things will get better, but it will take a lot of time. The fact that she confessed is hopeful, she is obviously remorseful and cared enough about you that she wanted you to know the truth.. that means a lot. You are a few paces into a journey of a thousand miles. Give it time, and you will get there.

Sorry you have to be here - but post often. There are a lot of supportive people on here. We've been through it, too. You are not alone, no matter how much you might feel it right now.


Me: BH, 36
Her: WW, 37
Two girls 8 & 10
Married 12 years
Dday: July, 2009

She wants answers... I'm still trying to figure out what the questions are.


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hurtandlost31
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Default  Posted: 3:00 PM, October 3rd (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Thank you so much for sharing. I left the house on Friday with some of my things, but came back the next day mainly because of our kids. Im not sure if that is the right thing to do, but I feel like it is. It is very hard at work because everyone knows us and it is difficult to make it seem like nothing is going on. We do not want anyone to know at work or any of our family members. I have confided in a very trusted friend and that has really helped because of his encouragement and awesome advice.

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Bigger
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Default  Posted: 7:41 AM, October 4th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Hey Hal31,
Many will tell you that you shouldn’t make any major decision right now when the pain is raw. I don’t agree. I think you do need to make one major decision and that right now. That is the decision that you won’t remain in infidelity.
Infidelity is a lot like alcoholism. It affects families and it alters the way people interact. So your wife not having sex with OM is not a “cure” for your infidelity; it’s simply ending the cause. The consequences have to be dealt with. So you deciding to not remain in infidelity is simply an acknowledgement that you are going to resolve this issue and see it through. That could be by divorce or that could be through reconciliation.

OK – so can you reconcile? Well yes. Definitely. In fact only a minority of marriages dealing with infidelity actually end because of the infidelity. This site was founded by a successfully reconciled couple. Some of the best posters here are reconciled WS and BS. But then – some of the best posters are also separated or divorced. There is really no right or wrong other than remaining in infidelity.

It’s also perfectly OK to divorce. It’s your call.

What I do want to emphasize is the positives in your situation:
Your wife on her own free will came out with the truth because she realized dragging this albatross through the marriage was not feasible.


I know that this might not sound like a positive but it is IMMENSE.
Add that to your WW free acknowledgement of responsibility and blame… and you have a head-start to recovery most husbands would give their left testicle to have.
Yes – I know it doesn’t sound like much but IMHO you have to deal with this from an angle of pure reality: Your wife has had the affair. Wishing it goes away won’t fix anything. So dealing with what you have can be compared to finding an extra big bucket in a leaking boat. It sure beats emptying the boat with a paper cup.

My suggestion? Well – basically communications:
Acknowledge to your wife that above all you wish to reconcile. But also make it clear you fear your ability to do so. Be very honest and open about this. I would thank her for her honesty. I would make sure she knows that although it hurts then you understand that this needed to come out. Tell her that there are some things you need to know about the affair. That the truth has to come out before your marriage even has a chance.

[Be careful here; you need to evaluate WHAT you need to know and how you will use that info. We have cases here on SI where the BH asked if OM was “bigger” (no pun intended and my user name has NO below-waist relevance) or if the sex was better. Personally I don’t see much use in any possible answer to those questions; if the OM was bigger do you believe her when she claims it doesn’t matter? Do you believe her if she says the sex was crap? I would really evaluate each question you need answered based on a) is it answerable and b) is it necessary for your recovery]

You need assurances the affair is over. What is their business relationship? Is she in any contact with him or his company? How can she assure you that it’s over? How can she assure you next business trip that she isn’t jumping him or another man? In order to reconcile many of us (me included) will tell you total enforceable NC is required. This means that “we only correspond on business issues” is not good enough.

I would then acknowledge with her that this issue is bigger than you two can deal with. You want outside help to get to the bottom of what made her decide that having sex with another man was a swell idea (note I don’t really care about the “why”. To me it’s more of a “what made your logic go in a way that made you end up with another man” thing) so she has to go to IC. This could be the same therapist as does your MC because that’s the second outside factor you two need. Do some research on MC’s and find one that says he/she specializes in infidelity. Tell the MC the agenda is to a) help your wife find out what made her do this b) help you deal with this knowledge and c) help you two improve your marriage irrespective of the affair.

I would also be clear on some things with her. Tell her that the next months will be extremely tough and that your mood will sway to and fro. That most info indicates it will take you two years of hard work to come to some acceptance.

It’s a long rough path ahead but I really think you two can make it IF you are willing to commit to it.


"If, therefore, any be unhappy, let him remember that he is unhappy by reason of himself alone." Epictetus

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hurtandlost31
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Default  Posted: 9:57 AM, October 4th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Thank you for the great advice Bigger. I have asked a lot of questions, but I am not interested in the details of the actual act. We are talking and I am not holding anything back. I know for sure that she is hurting very much too. Reading these posts and writing on here, makes me feel better. I'm trying really hard to stay strong and focused. This weekend I hardly ate anything, but I have been doing better. Thank you all for the advice and support. I will keep posting and reading.

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Bigger
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Default  Posted: 10:34 AM, October 4th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Hal,
Please – no matter what – GET PROFESSIONAL HELP.

One of the reasons we tend to handle these situations wrong is the simple fact we never imagined being here. Try this exercise; try switching the cause of your pain from infidelity to appendix. Imagine your appendix burst and you felt the extreme pain that causes.
I’m certain you got some sharp knives, razor blades and disinfectant at home. I’m sure that you are willing to tolerate pain to save time and money. I’m certain you can search online and get a pdf with step-by-step instructions on how to remove a burst appendix… Heck – you can probably find a procedure on YouTube…
But would you do it? Would you call your wife, strap yourself down on the kitchen table and show her the knives?

Doubt it.

It’s the same with this. It’s extremely unlikely that you and/or your wife can fix this alone. Find a good competent MC/IC and get professional help.


"If, therefore, any be unhappy, let him remember that he is unhappy by reason of himself alone." Epictetus

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Default  Posted: 2:42 PM, October 4th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I know you don't want details of the sexual act, but at least you need to enquire as to whether a condom was used or not. One hell of a difference when it comes to transferring STD's from the OM to your wife.

Also make this a traumatic experience for your wife. She has to acknowledge the damage done to your marriage and the betrayal of promises made to one another. Tell you are considering divorce, and need a few months to think things over, even if you are not. Some BS's forgive immediately when it should be a drawn out process.


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ontheslope
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Default  Posted: 7:10 PM, October 4th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Some BS's forgive immediately when it should be a drawn out process.

That was me. Nearly went mad from it. DON'T BE ME.

Forgive only when you are ready. Trust only when you are ready. Love only when you are ready. And if you're not, that's OK. Don't feel like you have to do any of those things. This is about you. Do what is right for you. Stay. Go. Now. Later. But ONLY IF IT IS WHAT YOU WANT.

Best of luck and I'm sorry you had to join the ranks here. Wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy.


Me: BH, 36
Her: WW, 37
Two girls 8 & 10
Married 12 years
Dday: July, 2009

She wants answers... I'm still trying to figure out what the questions are.


Posts: 269 | Registered: Sep 2013 | From: Maine, USA
hurtandlost31
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Default  Posted: 8:58 PM, October 4th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Thank you. Brought a MC onto our conversation and without hesitation she said is going to find one for us. She is trying her best, and I know she is. I want to R and I think that is the direction I'm headed, but it is hard. I love her and I know and feel she truly loves me.

[This message edited by hurtandlost31 at 9:05 PM, October 4th (Friday)]


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jb3199
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Default  Posted: 9:29 PM, October 4th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Sorry that you are here, friend.

I have little doubt that she loves you. Most members here---betrayed and wayward---love their spouses. The problem is that your world, as you knew it, just got nuked....with you and the children at the epicenter. Ironically, your wife was right there too.

As much as you are hurting right now, remember---your wife betrayed not only you and your family, but herself---and has the unenviable task of not only helping you heal, but to find out where her boundaries became so blurred that she could do the unthinkable. It is a mess the whole way around.

You are going to go through emotions so strong, that you could never have imagined. It is called the rollercoaster, and for good reason. Don't be surprised if you swing from one extreme to another in a moment's notice---it is natural in this instance.

There are no short-cuts to work through infidelity. It has to be dealt with head-on, and it takes time. Time to absorb what has truly happened; time to get to reasons how this happened, and time to heal from the trauma. Time. Time. Time.

But you are pointing in the right direction. Your wife has shown positive indicators that many members here will never receive. And although you were in a much better place a couple of weeks ago, you can get back there again.

It just takes time and effort---from the two of you.


BH-47
WW-44
2 boys-17 & 20(special needs)
Married 21yrs.(together 27yrs.)

All work and no play has just cost me my wife--Gary Puckett
D-Day: 9/18/09 D-Day#2: 2/19/10 The Marriage Killer: 6/6/11
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