I showed him a picture on Facebook of a female friend of his, very preemie baby. She isn't someone he keeps in touch with anymore, and because of his lies and ONS, he has no women on his Facebook. I thought he'd want to know she had her little one. He looked at the picture, and his ex had made a comment on it. Ughhhh. The ex is friends with this woman. He seems off in thought. I was upset because the baby was another baby born to a young lady who stupidly hooked up with a guy who uses illegal drugs. I just had another friend who's daughter had a severely premature baby, and they found drugs present in her placenta. I'm so upset with these girls who put their babies in harms way!!!!
Well WBF starts to defend her. Says she's a good person. I stop him in his tracks. How the EF does he know what kind of person she is!!!!! He's not seen her in a year. And when he had, he was never that close. I'm pissed and and tell him he knows nothing about her. He puts his hand up and says he's done talking about this.
Ummmm, excuse me??? He goes up to shower, and I just left. Pulled over to write this.
Am I wrong?
I just want to be done with this shit.
I don't think it's worth it.
I'm sorry for the vent
But... be safe. I'm glad you pulled over to write this, but you're upset, and driving while upset can be dangerous. Just...be safe.
I'm sorry for what you are going through. I wish I could offer some advice. Best thing I can say is to take some time for yourself, maybe even keep driving, find a motel, spend a night with your thoughts, if you think it will help. But it sounds like you have some hard thinking to do.
Time will help. If there is still something worth saving in the relationship, I hope you find it.
She wants answers... I'm still trying to figure out what the questions are.
As already said, be safe. Don't drive angry. Go to a friend's place or somewhere you can cool off and maybe gain some more perspective on this.
"I can fill the flask up, but can't get past us
I'm in the storm, staying strong, but can't get back up"
There's always failure. And there's always disappointment. And there's always loss.
But the secret is learning from the loss, and realizing that none of those holes are vacuums.
- Michael J. Fox
NowIknow, thank you. I don't know the last time I've been asked how I'm doing, when something hurts like this. It may sound silly, but I'm actually crying thinking about it. I live with this man and my five children, spend my days always doing for them, and a stranger who's going through her own very deep pain has the kindness to ask.
I think I'm just feeling lost and sad this morning. Maybe a trip to the farmers market with the kids will change the outlook.
That is a black and white rule of life. No exceptions.
So sorry for you
"We're not broken, just bent. We can learn to love again."
It's a new week, and not going to let his past take the smiles away from my children and me!