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User Topic: I ended up in a hotel with the sheriffs after me.
letitout
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Default  Posted: 7:06 PM, October 8th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

OK, so my H and I had a Hugh fight the other day and the next day after work I went and drove somewhere where I sat in my car for about an hour. I then took a short walk. A Mexican restaurant was close by so I went in and had a couple of margaritas. That didn't mix well with xanax and I was pretty smashed when I left.

I went to a hotel to spend the night. I din't tell anyone where I was going. The sheriff tracked me down and before you know it there were 2 sheriffs and 2 medics at my hotel room.

They thought I was going to kill myself. All I wanted was a good cry and try to sleep away from it all.

They kept insisting that I go to the hospital for observation. I was very calm and told them I just wanted to be left alone. One sheriff took pity on my situation and told the others basically to back off.

They finally left me alone. I didn't sleep. This fight is going to stay with me for a long time.

I had to listen to my coworker about her vacation to las vegus, where my H took one of his 20 yo prostitutes (he is 64)on vacation. Who does that with prostitutes?

I just got up and left work today, I don't know if I will have a job tomorrow or not.

I don't have a question or concern. I just want to be somewhere that I know you all have been there and need support through this.


BW 55, WH 64
2 years of prostitutes.

Posts: 281 | Registered: Jan 2013 | From: California
SpiderGrl
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Default  Posted: 7:19 PM, October 8th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Oh, letitout, I am so sorry. I have that completely lost feeling sometimes. The only thing that keeps me here on those days are my children. It is such a bereft and horrid feeling. I am glad you are ok, and I am sorry that you scared the crap out of someone enough for them to send the sheriff after you. Please try to funnel your hurt into something that is better for you, like running or walking or writing. May you find some peace.


Me 36- BW
Him 37- WH 6 month EA pushing PA.
DDAY- 7/2/13
Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will. -Gandhi
Pls forgive weird sentences and spelling mistakes, I post from my phone and autocorrect hates me.

Posts: 101 | Registered: Aug 2013 | From: US
meplusfour
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Default  Posted: 7:20 PM, October 8th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Sending you good thoughts. Know that you are strong and will pass through this. Take care of yourself~please be careful while drinking on medication. I do not want to be preachy, but I would hate to see you suffer from any unintentional side effects from mixing medication and alcohol. On a practical note, if you are unable to cope with work right now, it is possible for you to take a temporary leave from your workplace? Maybe take a few days of vacation?

((letitout))


BW (me)42
WH 44
3 daughters, 1 son
Married 10 years, together 13
DDay 3/14/2013, four year PA
In R
"Sometimes you have to accept the fact that certain things will never go back to the way they used to be."

Posts: 361 | Registered: Apr 2013 | From: Canada
tryin2havefaith
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Default  Posted: 7:23 PM, October 8th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

((letitout))

Sending you hugs and prayers.

Check with your job to see if they have EAP (Employee Assistance Program). They may be able to assist you with counseling and possible leave of absence.


ME- BS
HIM- WS
DDay 1/2011
4 - 6 months of TT'ing
Fully R'd
"Just as ripples spread out when a single pebble is dropped into water, the actions of individuals can have far-reaching effects. " -Dalai Lama

Posts: 265 | Registered: Oct 2012
I think I can
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Default  Posted: 8:51 PM, October 8th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

((letitout))


I'm not the winner, I'm the prize.

Posts: 8814 | Registered: Jan 2008
Gr8Lady
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Default  Posted: 9:03 PM, October 8th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Sending understanding and empathy for the situation. A good cry, soul searching, and shut down is what I hear you requesting.
I sincerely hope the new day brings a strength to proceed with your life.
Have you written down what you hope to accomplish? What is most important to you, and how your needs can be met.
Sometimes seeing the words in print
Makes each issue more or less important for your journey. Then you can make a plan.
You are stronger than you think.


BS: Me (63yo)
FWH: HIM (65yo) serial infidelities over past 35 years
OW: Many, most recent 1/2 his age
DD: Multiple unconfirmed until 2012 when I presented evidence, plus LTA with his friends wife lasting 10 years. TT over past year
So done,

Posts: 611 | Registered: Jul 2012
forgivingnow
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Default  Posted: 11:06 PM, October 8th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

(((Letitout)))
Many of us have been there & dealt with what you are trying to work through. You have support here. How are you now? I like spidergirls rec...exercise, write, vent here. You will be ok. It will get better.


Me-BS 51
FWH-51
M 31 yrs.
Dday 3-19-11, TT 10/2011, Full truth July 2013
Strength comes from within. You can't get it from someone or go somewhere to get it. It is already here, waiting to be used when you need it most. Believe in yourself.
R

Posts: 610 | Registered: Oct 2011
RidingHealingRd
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Default  Posted: 11:31 PM, October 8th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

That didn't mix well with xanax and I was pretty smashed when I left.

Please tell me that you did not drive to a hotel? Not coming down on you, just concerned about the danger and the ramifications of a possible DUI.

I am sorry for your struggle but am glad that you are okay.

Sometimes it is good to just leave the stressful environment but it is important that you leave sober.

I remember getting into my car one night and driving 3 hours...I just headed East and kept driving. Eventually I turned around and headed home. It helped to calm me and clear my head.

Wishing you better days.


ME: 54 BS
HIM: 61 WH
Married: 28 years
D'Day: 10/29/10
in R 3.5 years and it's working but he is putting 200% into it (as he should) to make it right again.

The truth hurts, but I have never seen it cause the pain that lies do.


Posts: 2109 | Registered: Nov 2011
Tinker01
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Default  Posted: 11:34 PM, October 8th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Sending you HUGS & HOPE !


Me 40
Him 5
Dday June 20/23 2013

Posts: 14 | Registered: Aug 2013 | From: Tinker01
deeplysad
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Default  Posted: 11:37 PM, October 8th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

((((((letitout))))))


Me: BW - I'm much too young to feel this damn old
Him: FWH - Midlife crisis with a pathetic porn wannabe
D-Day: August 2004; Lots of false R until February 2005.

It takes all kinds of kinds....Miranda Lambert


Posts: 3231 | Registered: Oct 2007 | From: So Calif
letitout
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Default  Posted: 4:54 AM, October 9th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Thanks for all your support. I just started a very high demanding job about 2 weeks ago after being a SAHM for 10 years. I can't do my job. I'm trying to gain independence from him even though we are trying to R. I don't think that helped in keeping under control with the fight.

So, to answer your question about work leave, that is out of the question since I just started and I am in a position that cant' be filled by another person right now.

I do believe that it was counter productive to fight and then just go off. I am working on keeping my anger under control. It is hard for me because I have a slightly unremorseful spouse, that makes it want to beat him to say he didn't have fun with them, they weren't friends etc.. Our MC said it is what it is and nothing is going to change it, so it's time to move on and quit trying to get him to say what I want to hear. Because I can't change the way he feels. But I can change the way I feel. In MC last night my H said he wanted a divorce because of my anger and not being able to talk about the prostitutes in a more constructive way. He then decided to give it another try, but now I'm afraid to talk about it at all.

Your right, Meds and drinking don't mix, esp. since I'm not a drinker. It was a bad idea and I could have ended up hurting myself and others.

I keep saying to myself that things will get better, because I truly did hit rock bottom that night.


BW 55, WH 64
2 years of prostitutes.

Posts: 281 | Registered: Jan 2013 | From: California
Alex CR
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Default  Posted: 8:05 AM, October 9th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

((letitout))) This is not an easy road and many of us have found drinking and AD's can affect us in ways that don't always work so great. I learned drinking helps the mean come out in me. I had to fix that to R with my H after one night when I really raged at him. I scared him and he was packing up to leave. I screamed at him it was his fault I was so angry and he should put on his big boy pants and fix the f*&^ing mess he made. He did end up staying and I found an IC for just me to help me get through the anger. Even though my actions that night are nothing I am proud of, I do in a way look back on it with a little bit of pleasure ...he deserved to be scared.

But in order to R, I couldn't let my anger run my life and the IC really helped me.

Because I can't change the way he feels. But I can change the way I feel.

This is the key......it's about you and taking good care of you. Find what you need to find peace and happiness...you deserve it and can do it.


BS Me 61
WS Him 62
Married 33
Together 40
DD 11/16/09
The future looks good....

Posts: 1686 | Registered: Mar 2010
Missymomma
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Default  Posted: 8:16 AM, October 9th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

(((letitout))) That sounds like a frightening and miserable night. There is nothing wrong with your feelings of anger but they have to be processed. Turning that anger onto yourself the way that you did is scary. Are you seeing an IC that specializes in trauma? If not, please find one.


DDay - 6/15/11
R started - 7/1/11
False Discl- 9/27/12
Real Discl - 2/12/13
Poly - 3/1/13 Pass!
Me - BS (46)
WH - 52 (SA, NA, WA)
Kids: 2 littles and 1 grown
The road to recovery is long and hard. Some days I am up for it and others not!

Posts: 1084 | Registered: Sep 2012 | From: Texas
ionlytalkedtoher
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Default  Posted: 8:26 AM, October 9th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I also don't want to sound preachy but xanax and alcohol is lethal.

hoping things get better there.


Posts: 262 | Registered: Jul 2013
Gr8Lady
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Default  Posted: 10:07 AM, October 9th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Let it out
I' m not a drinker either so I know what you mean...real lightweight 2 drinks and I'm buzzed.
The MC may be able to give you some insight on working on your anger. Trust me I too have blown up like a firecracker.
Gently, no lecture from me but work on YOU healing and growing. Then R can be possible,
The only person you have control over is yourself, you can't change H.
So make yourself the best person you can be. Read, rely on good friends family if possible and heal.
You can do this new job. You CAN.
I repeat YOU are stronger than you think.


BS: Me (63yo)
FWH: HIM (65yo) serial infidelities over past 35 years
OW: Many, most recent 1/2 his age
DD: Multiple unconfirmed until 2012 when I presented evidence, plus LTA with his friends wife lasting 10 years. TT over past year
So done,

Posts: 611 | Registered: Jul 2012
letitout
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Default  Posted: 10:27 PM, October 9th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Just an update. We had MC the night after the hotel. We had not spoken or seen each other. In MC he said he wanted a divorce. He said he was tired of me losing it and yelling and this leaving was the last time he was going to put up with it. He said I was the one who made him go to the prostitutes.

Well, the MC set him straight. She said I DID NOT make him go to the prostitutes HE made that choice. He could have handled our M in a different way. On my part I needed to learn to let it go. I need to learn how to be an adult and talk about it in a rational manor.

We ended up not D that night, we are going to give it another shot.


BW 55, WH 64
2 years of prostitutes.

Posts: 281 | Registered: Jan 2013 | From: California
SpiderGrl
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Default  Posted: 10:30 PM, October 9th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Glad to hear MC set him straight and gave you a little what-for too (I bet it wasn't anything you didn't know). I hope and pray that you are on the path that will lead you to where you want to be.


Me 36- BW
Him 37- WH 6 month EA pushing PA.
DDAY- 7/2/13
Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will. -Gandhi
Pls forgive weird sentences and spelling mistakes, I post from my phone and autocorrect hates me.

Posts: 101 | Registered: Aug 2013 | From: US
5454real
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Default  Posted: 10:33 PM, October 9th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

the last time he was going to put up with it

Really?

I'm really PO'd for you now. You've got a good MC.

Strength


BH 51, WW 42
DS 23(Mine),SD 21,SS 20(Hers),DS 9 Ours, DGS 3, DGD 1 mo
D=Day #1 5/04EA (Rugswept)
D-Day #2 3/10/12, TT til 3/13/12
Married 10yrs
I have no love for a friend who loves in words alone.
― Sophocles, Antigone

Posts: 2811 | Registered: Nov 2012 | From: midwest
gonnabe2016
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Default  Posted: 10:52 PM, October 9th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

He said I was the one who made him go to the prostitutes.

He said this. Seriously?

Listen to me. A WS that is always throwing out the D card...is a WS that needs to be divorced.

Don't let him bully you.


"Oh, what a tangled web we weave when first we practice to deceive." - Sir Walter Scott

In my effort to be *concise*, I often come off as blunt and harsh. Sorry, don't mean to be offensive.


Posts: 8001 | Registered: Feb 2012 | From: Midwest
Dallas2
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Default  Posted: 1:52 PM, October 10th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Let it out,

I am so releived to see you are not hurt. I have been looking. My FWH was also not the most remorseful WH there has ever been. Regretful yes.

I like your MC. Are you going to IC?

I do hope your job is there. It is good for you to find yourself again.


Me

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