Yesterday was good other than the red dodge charger trigger. Today is different, idk if I'm being unreasonable, if I'm on edge bc the baby was up all night and I didn't really get to sleep until 5am or what. I just need to vent before I become a raging lunatic...
I called the H on his lunch break to talk to him bc I go back to work today and until Tuesday evening we won't get to really see each other bc of job schedules. He's at work, not the job w the OW, his 2nd job he picked up hoping ill quit mine to be a sahm again. I called him while he was ordering and told him call me back but plz text me his card info since I lost mine and needed to pay bills.
After he didn't call me back I text him "soooo, did u forget about me?". He calls and is all "oh I didn't know u still wanted me too call you back. I'm back on the job site now.". I'm like wtf man? Yes I wanted you to call me back bc we won't get to really talk until Tuesday bc your going back to the other job (where OW works too) tomorrow. So yes when I said call me back that's exactly what I meant.
So he's all "well I can't talk now, not unless you want me to get fired" and I'm all "okay well when I say call me back effin call me back".
This really irritates me bc the last time I wanted to talk to him, it was about way more important stuff, I was reaching for him to talk about things in our marriage we were working on. Instead of recognizing that he put his blinders on and started an affair. So yes I'm more than irritated by him not recognizing his wifes need to talk to him, keep the communication open, regardless of the importance.
Now I can't find my van keys and I text him if he accidentally took both sets and he calls me all angry bc he's gonna get in trouble for being on his phone. Well I can't go to work on time wo my keys so I needed to know if he had them.
Him not talking to me regardless of the importance really pisses me off. Especially since it was so easy for him to talk to his little rotten whore about our issues. So yeah I want to talk to him for 30 mins today, personally. He said well ill text you while you're at work...how is that even close to the same?
I'm trying sooooo hard not to lose it. I'm not sure if I'm on eedge bc I'm exhausted or if I'm being reasonable. I just need to vent