A few that come to mind-
Best: heartfelt things my kids have made for me, getting a good grade in a hard class, genuine compliment from boss on my strength. Moments of reclaiming self esteem. Moments of gratitude.
Worst: days on the bathroom floor crying, believing this would last forever. Being broke finding money for pizza for me and kids for dinner, crying when dropped it on the ground out of box carrying it into the house. Before CS began going to and lining up for a church food distribution.
Best: having control of my own destiny, and being able to do whatever I want.
Worst: Of course, there are a few, but having my mom recently diagnosed with cancer, and not having someone to lean on.
WH says marriage is over: May 15, 2009.
EA#2 July 20, 2009. Legally sep: Aug 16, 2009. DIVORCED!!!! Signed Nov 23, final Dec 24, 2010, adultery listed.
Worst: The first time my kids left Christmas Day, the first heartbreak in dating.
"For whatever we lose, like a you or a me, it's always ourselves we find in the sea" ee cummings
Worst : So, so many but the utter confusion and disbelief that I felt at the beginning still take my breath away when I think about it.
Worst: Dating too soon, idiots that I let tear down my self esteem even more than my cheating ex did.
"We're not broken, just bent, and we can learn to love again" ~Pink
Worst: Realizing how alone I had been long before we S and D, as evidenced by how much I was doing on my own and how little changed when he moved out. Having my new relationship end before I was ready. The intermittent waves of grief that still can knock me completely over once in awhile. The other relationships that have changed in my life since D. Feeling like I have very little backup support.
Best: Planning and going on a short vacation with my little boys to Montreal. I can do that without relying on the control freak to make it happen.
The best thing about hitting rock bottom is that everything after that looks fucking fabulous
BEST: Finally getting settlement money after a 3 year battle AFTER the divorce and being able to refinance the house in my name only. (Even my lawyers told me to give up. I went through 7 of them trying to get the money he owed. In the end, I did it myself)
WORST: Having a near fatal heart attack at 39 years old brought on by the stress associated with above mentioned battle. (In great shape, at the gym 4 times a week and was emailing my lawyer from my hospital bed )