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User Topic: Crazy today
cantaccept
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Default  Posted: 1:27 PM, October 16th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Absolutely nothing new. I just hurt. I feel insane.

How can this hurt so bad for so long???

How is this depth of pain possible???

Dday anti is Monday. The day he walked out on me. Left me for her. A stranger. Left me for nothing.

Trying to work and suffering. Trying not to vent on customers. I just don't even feel like me today. Holding back the screams.


Life is change. Growth is optional. Choose wisely.

I would now like to be known as Can!

dday October 21,2012
dday December 20, 2013
wh boots5050
attempted R, it was all a lie

divorcing


Posts: 1253 | Registered: Nov 2012 | From: Connecticut
TheAmazingWondertwin
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Default  Posted: 1:41 PM, October 16th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Just wanted you to know that you have been heard.
Take deep breaths, cry in the bathroom if you need to. It's okay to feel this way, even though I know it's hard.
This feeling will pass- and be replaced by a new and even crazier one possibly- but you will make it through the day.
I'm rooting for you. Tomorrow is a new day.
Hugs to you.


Everyday is a new day, some good, some bad.
Me- BS 39
Him- FWS
14 years- 2 middle school children
DDay- 07-24-2013
NC broken from August 6- 24, 2013
Avalanche of Truth on November 14, 2013
Length of A: June 10th to Dday- with broken NC

Posts: 474 | Registered: Sep 2013 | From: East Coast
SpiderGrl
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Default  Posted: 1:47 PM, October 16th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I'm sorry you are fighting terrible memories and feelings. If you can carve out a few minutes scribe out a rough paragraph of rants. It may help alleviate the pressure. Big hugs!!


Me 36- BW
Him 37- WH 6 month EA pushing PA.
DDAY- 7/2/13
Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will. -Gandhi
Pls forgive weird sentences and spelling mistakes, I post from my phone and autocorrect hates me.

Posts: 101 | Registered: Aug 2013 | From: US
learningtofeel
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Default  Posted: 1:55 PM, October 16th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

(((((cantaccept)))))

I hope you are able to let the feelings exist. And know that we hear you and we get it. You are not alone.


M 1989
3 young adult kids
D-Day 4.13.13
WS (him): 7 OW over 15 years
BS (me): had no clue

Posts: 97 | Registered: Jun 2013 | From: United States
sisoon
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Default  Posted: 5:08 PM, October 16th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I just hurt. I feel insane.

Yup. We all know; now you do, too. Take deep breaths, feel your feelings, know that you're very sane indeed.

How can this hurt so bad for so long??? How is this depth of pain possible???

I keep telling myself I can't feel joy unless I can also feel pain. And the reason this hurts so bad is that I loved so well - and giving love is as important as receiving it.

These messages help some, but the real pain-killer is, paradoxically, just to feel the pain, which lets it go.

Hang in - you'll probably feel at least some relief on Monday.


fBH (me) - 65+, fWW (her) - 65+, Married 45+, together since 1965
DDay - 12/2010
Recovered, not yet fully R'ed
I share my own experience because it's the only experience I know, not because I'm a good model.

Posts: 9773 | Registered: Feb 2011 | From: Chicago area
cantaccept
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Default  Posted: 5:57 PM, October 16th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Thanks all, I guess I really am over the top today, started a new thread and never even looked back here.

Work was awful, it did not go unnoticed. Not a good thing when the crazies show.

I think maybe time of year combined with conversation with h this morning and lots of time driving were not good.

I like,"it hurts so bad because I loved so well"

That hurts too though, I keep thinking he didn't cheat because I did not love well enough, he cheated because he did not love well enough.


Life is change. Growth is optional. Choose wisely.

I would now like to be known as Can!

dday October 21,2012
dday December 20, 2013
wh boots5050
attempted R, it was all a lie

divorcing


Posts: 1253 | Registered: Nov 2012 | From: Connecticut
heartache101
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Default  Posted: 6:05 PM, October 16th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

If it helps it is also who they are working around too. If the people have no morals your spouse will eventually have none too. It is an epidemic. Sad..
But my spouse says he is a different person now. What does that really mean? I see the same person. Just now he has a label CHEATER. That label will always be there. but he doesnt see himself like that


There are degrees to which you let people back into your life and degrees to which you let them back into your heart-which, of course, are not the same thing

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