Member # 40674
| Posted: 1:17 AM, October 18th (Friday), 2013|
5 weeks post dday. No time
I suddenly don't waken and get kicked with remembering as if it was the first time. I just feel bone crushingly sad
He is remorseful. He is trying to get his shit together. NC was immediate. TT was limited. The fog has gone. He is more committed to me than ever and being the man he once was for the first time since his breakdown in 2006.
I know this is just likely to be another stage. Necessary in my healing
But it is overwhelming. I don't want to do anything at all.
Me BS, 41
Him WS, 45
EA and PA (PA for 11 months)
3 children - 15,12,3
WS has bipolar, no excuse...
"We're not broken, just bent. We can learn to love again."
Posts: 421 | Registered: Sep 2013 | From: Ireland
Member # 36622
| Posted: 5:12 AM, October 18th (Friday), 2013|
fWS 36 (SurprisinglyOkay)
A whole bunch of shit that got a lot worse before it got better. Reconciled from the A's but still working hard for a better tomorrow.
"Knowing is half the battle"
Posts: 2422 | Registered: Aug 2012
Member # 39670
| Posted: 8:44 AM, October 18th (Friday), 2013|
I went through that earlier on also, I was terrified I was sinking into a depression I would never emerge from. Like, I wanted to pull the shades and stay in bed all day every day and could not muster the motivation to do anything at all. For me it was just another phase. I hope you feel better soon.
Me, BW forty something, DD & DS,
Married to WH (48) 10 years, together 15
D-Day #2 9.6.13 Broken NC/TT
D-Day #3 10.23.13 "Full Disclosure"
WH having PA with MW coworker 3.13-6.13
Posts: 620 | Registered: Jun 2013
Member # 40968
| Posted: 10:35 AM, October 18th (Friday), 2013|
Hugs. I'm sorry. I know the overwhelming pain.
Posts: 90 | Registered: Oct 2013
Member # 35812
| Posted: 12:12 PM, October 18th (Friday), 2013|
Yeah, I called it the Lethal Plain of Flatness. It's a totally grey place. Eventually, you will get yourself out of it, but it will come and go for some time. (((hugs)))
Imagine a ship trying to set sail while towing an anchor. Cutting free is not a gift to the anchor. You must release that burden, not because the anchor is worthy, but because the ship is.
D-Day, June 10, 2012
Posts: 4120 | Registered: Jun 2012 | From: So California
Member # 31528
| Posted: 4:25 PM, October 18th (Friday), 2013|
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