I stayed with a friend last weekend out of town, and it was somewhat helpful. I don't have any friends at all in the town that I live, and my family all live at least 5 hours away. When I say that I feel alone, I really do mean that. I've gotten involved in different groups designed to meet people, so I try to stay busy that way, I haven't really met anyone that I click with though, so most of my interactions with people are superficial and nothing deep or real.
I'm going to remove myself from SI for awhile. I really do appreciate everyone who has replied to me and tried to help. I guess I've been resistant to leaving SI because I saw it as another thing that his A took from me, and it makes me sad. I'm going to keep going to IC, and she has me doing a book with exercises in it on healing your inner child.
I really do appreciate all the support I've received on here. Thank you.