the hours I spent watching TV - or porn
I felt lost and powerless and didnít even recognize what I felt.
tie closely together for me personally.
My use of porn left me feeling lost, disconnected, and powerless. In counseling it has been determined that I am not a SA but have issues with intimacy...partly due to my long standing use of pornography, partly just sustained by pornography...since puberty. (but abandonment issues and other factors are in play too).
I know this is not the point of this post and that you are NOT me....so I recognize I am projecting here. Just thought it worth noting.
There was a time in my life that I put viewing TV and viewing porn in a very similar light....for me, it was unhealthy and did not realize it.
Porn was an escape from true intimacy....or more like an avoidance to do something that I didn't know how to do or even that I WAS avoiding it.
God be with you.