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User Topic: Yikes! I forgot to handle this part...(vent)
blakesteele
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Default  Posted: 12:26 AM, October 26th (Saturday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

the hours I spent watching TV - or porn

and this

I felt lost and powerless and didnít even recognize what I felt.

tie closely together for me personally.

My use of porn left me feeling lost, disconnected, and powerless. In counseling it has been determined that I am not a SA but have issues with intimacy...partly due to my long standing use of pornography, partly just sustained by pornography...since puberty. (but abandonment issues and other factors are in play too).

I know this is not the point of this post and that you are NOT me....so I recognize I am projecting here. Just thought it worth noting.

There was a time in my life that I put viewing TV and viewing porn in a very similar light....for me, it was unhealthy and did not realize it.

Porn was an escape from true intimacy....or more like an avoidance to do something that I didn't know how to do or even that I WAS avoiding it.

God be with you.

[This message edited by blakesteele at 12:27 AM, October 26th (Saturday)]


ME: 42 BH, I don't PM female members
SHE: 38 EA
Married: 15 years
Together: 17 years
D/Day 9-10-12
NC: 10-25-12
NC: Broken early November 2012, OM not respond
2 girls; 7 and 10
Fear is payments on debts you have not

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