I have my first mediation meeting tomorrow. I don't think much will be resolved since he has not been forthcoming with all the financial stuff. I need to see the full story before I feel comfortable doing any sort of negotiations. Both the forensic accountant and my attorney wanted to postpone this until December, but his fancy pants attorney said no.
I don't know what to expect from his attorney. I don't know what to expect from my attorney either - don't feel real confident in him.
One of my fears is running into my soon to be ex. I don't want to see him or run into him. I don't want him to come up to me to say "Hi". I have not seen him since April. I have been told that we will have separate rooms, so that's good. If he comes up to me, I don't know what to do, outside of just walk away. Any ideas?
I am also afraid of getting hit from left field on something, I have been having so many memories of Dday the last few weeks, seeing the stone cold poker face he had when I confronted him on the affair and telling me to get out. I guess I have some fear that he will kick me out again (I have been living at what was going to be our retirement house), afraid that he and his attorney are going to try to bully and intimidate me.
I just have to stick to my guns, do what is best for me and my future. It's so hard not to let my emotions get the best of me.
I know that a year from now, I will be in such a better place. I am in a better place than I was 11 months ago. So much better!
Just get lonely at times....but I am learning to embrace my freedom.